Still here · 4:29pm Jun 6th, 2013
I'm posting this because...well, I'm not sure. I guess I just don't like leaving you guys in the dark with what I wrote in that last post.
I do want to get one thing out of the way. Due to some things that I'd rather not talk about, since it would involve throwing certain people in my life under the bus, I might not be able to see a doctor with my mental problems in a long while. When I can do this, I have no idea. There's a barrier there and I'm not sure if it's ever going to completely go away. Nevertheless, I feel a bit better after not writing for the longest period in my life in quite some time. At least, out of my free will.
And I think that's it. It's nice to stop and not have to worry about getting the next chapter out like a factory worker does, being able to watch FIM episodes and play Skyrim like I wanted to.
Do your thing, no one can complain
I don't know anything about your circumstances, but I can't help but be concerned about you not seeing a therapist because of it's affect on other people.
I'm not sure how to put this more delicately so I'll just be blunt – are you avoiding seeing the doctor because you are afraid to report something to an authority that might get someone else into legal trouble? Because if you are that's often exactly the sort of thing you need to report. I would strongly encourage you to speak with someone anyway if that's the case here.
My apologies if I am completely misreading between the lines here.
always get medical help, never let anything get in the way. despite what you believe life is about, your health is your life; so it's kinda a big deal to fulfilling your own life goal or purpose. nothing is more important....nothing.
I don't know how serious your situation is, nor will i ask. you would have told us if you wanted to anyway. all i ask is think about it and if need be, be a bit more selfish when it comes to your own health if doing so will hurt others. only so much you should give up so others may gain. your health isn't something anyone should give up for anothers gain but in situations where perhaps there health is a matter as well.
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I really don't want to talk about it in detail, because again there's going to be throwing people under the bus in that case, but there's a few persons that look like they're going to stand in the way of me getting help.
Dont worry for other people, just take time for yourself, and if you can, try to find someone that can help you...take care!!
We all need a break. I've mostly been playing Mass Effect instead of working on my fic. There are other reasons but I probably will get into it again.
Personally I would suggest a therapist. It did wonders for me. I managed to get one on a sliding scale fee, but eventually I got insurance from my job so now I have to pay. But still it helps. Maybe a sliding scale fee might work for you?
From a brony who spent a long time in a dark place but found his way out to one still lost: you can do it. What helped me the most was finding someone I could talk to about my problems, but whatever you feel will best see you through this difficult time, that's what you should do. We have never met, and in all likely hood, we never will, but as of now, you are my friend, and I believe in you. To quote one of my favorite songs: Hold on to what you believe in the light, when the darkness has robbed you of all your sight.
I just found you with KOTD. The story is really good!
Just wanted to say that I hope you will get better soon. And just try to take it easy and don`t think about this site or your stories if you don`t feel like it.
So, take care.