I give up(and some other off topic shit) · 3:49pm May 22nd, 2013
Goddammit, I was finally over my crush, who, just so you know, is single again now cause their girlfriend broke up with them. I was a good friend and comforted them and I won't make my move cause I just don't see why I should. Anyway, I went on this convention in Antwerp and met this awesome dude, but I was really shy and just didn't have the courage to talk to them, I hardly talked to anyone but my friend who was there with me. But I kinda really like the guy, and now I heard he has a crush. yay >3> though his crush is sadly lesbian and has a girlfriend. So I know exactly how he feels :I but yeah, I haven't talked to him much, I doubt he even knows my name but it's not about the guy. It's about the fact that every single time I like someone, they're either in a relationship or crushing on someone else >:I I don't feel like even trying anymore... I've also lately fallen into depression, I'm talking with my mom about it and it did work for a while, but it got bad again and now I'm back to where I started. I don't really know what to do so I had to write it down and this is the only place where none of my real friends ever come, so they won't read this. I kinda feel lonely a lot though..
aaah sorry for ranting, but if you did read it all than thank you~ If you have any advice it would be lovely if you would share it with me ^^ but thanks for reading anyway <3
And one more thing totally off topic: IS ANYONE GOING TO FLORIDA SUPERCON?? cause Hussie is there and I would just LOVE getting his autograph o3o but I can't go cause I live in the freaking way to far away and deserted Netherlands >3> (where they are cutting money on help for autistic kids SERIOUSLY NETHERLANDS))) anywaaaay. so if your're going and are willing to do this for me I would love you forever and always o3o (I could make you some art too if you want) so if you want to get it for me when you're going there, let me know ^^
Wow, wat een verhaal, het gaat alle kanten op hier, net; There's bullshit on the left, bullshit on the right, bullshit above, bullshit below, bullshit all over the place... Where was I goin' wit' dis?
Oh ja, Je hebt mij steun, zoals altijd hè. Ik kan niet echt veel advies geven, het is me zelf nooit overkomen. (nouja, eigenlijk wel 2 keer maar op een andere manier.) Gewoon héél véél sterke! Het spijt me echt.
Ik ga inderdaad dit jaar weer eens naar Florida, maar helaas een week te laat
Sorry!
Ik ga elke 2 jaar naar Amerika, dus als je ooit iets anders nodig hebt, mag je me zeker vragen. 
Nog eens héél véél sterkte toegewenst!
Wow, you're alive! And srry, but I probably won't make it to Supercon...
1097959 awww heel erg bedankt
ik waardeer het echt en ik zal het onthouden als ik ooit iets nodig heb x3 maarja in ieder geval vreselijk bedankt voor de steun :3
1098126 Oh it's okay x3 I'll survive xD
Mkay, a few things. So first I'd like to fully cover the convention. Like I already said to you, I'd only really go to conventions that I truly had some kind of interest in, such as brony, Doctor Who, or Minecraft conventions. Also, I don't want to go all the way down to Miami just to get an autograph; I really don't have the money since I just went to France. But, if I had a private jet and billions of dollars, you'd consider that task done!
Secondly, sorry to hear about all this depression you've been going through. Like I've kept saying, if you keep your head up high and not dwell on the bullshit we know as unhappiness and depression, then I'm sure you'll be fine. Though, I'm not a psychiatrist, so I don't know about these complicated mental diseases (like depression, of course). I'm sure there's bajillions of other people out there who would be the perfect match for you, and would love you so much, that you'd die from all the love cuz you know they'd just hug you to death or some shit and wow this sentence is going on for quite a long time when will it end is there even any punctuation or capitalization in here i have no idea oh i think the period is coming up no maybe not goddammit wait stop here it comes and now.
Sorry for what you're going through I'm just as shy when it comes to relationships. The only con I'll be going to is next years Gencon in Indiana. I'm still waiting for my artwork T.T
1098254 Well, the reason I asked about the florida con in this blog post is because maybe someone else will go there. And of course I understand that, just for an autograph, it's not really worth it to pay a lot of money xI
to be honest, you always manage to make me smile with your jokes and such ^^
And thanks for the support and such, I appreciate it so much
1098300 Thanks for the support, and about the artwork. I did begin, but school and a load of other things got in the way. And being depressed doesn't really help either... Anyway, seeing as it wasn't a big request(if I remember correctly, I think I've saved it somewhere on my pc so it'll be okay) I will get on it as soon as I catch up with my school work and a few other requests :3 I am terribly sorry that it's taking so long though ;-; I know what it's like to wait so much cause a few years ago I asked someone if they could draw me something, and they said they would, but eventually I never got anything and was too scared to ask again
But all that aside, thanks for the support and I'll get you your art as soon as I can :3
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Quite welcome for the pick-me-up a few days ago!