Pointless

So, I have been on this site for a little over half a year. Joined back in late July, and started watching ponies right at the start of summer. Since then, I feel that I, as a person, have improved. I'm generally nicer, happier, and slightly more energetic than I was before.

Unfortunately, the thing that did not change between non-Brony and Brony me, is stress and anxiety.

I am an exceptionally stressed person, which has lead to pain and depression. Why I am constantly stressed is mainly due to social interaction and interacting with people, along with my inability to relax. However, another reason is perfectionism.

I am a lazy person, I admit it. I'm nitpicky with what I decide to put time and effort into, and if it isn't within my interest (or, y'know, school stuff), I usually won't do it. However, when I do devote myself to something, I really devote myself. I am, as I mentioned, a perfectionist. Incredibly attentive to detail, to the point of obsession, and typically very motivated to complete it.

Then there's writing.

Now, I love writing, I really do. It's a creative experience, and a fun one. I enjoy fleshing out personalities, I enjoy seeing how I can put characters into situations that force them to think and work, and I enjoy getting feedback on it.

However, in writing, there are no real parameters. No goals to meet except the ones you set. And that stresses me out, for whatever reason. I don't really know.

I honestly don't know why I'm making this blog, besides to make an excuse for my inactivity and to whine about my problems, so I'll end it here. Sorry.

I'm gonna go take a hot shower, watch the finale, and cry in the corner. See you all later, I guess.

-Plyxe

Comments

[Biker_Dash]

Yeah... cry...
Like I want to do every effin second of my useless night...

Sorry... I'll shut up now