farewell

if anybody actually ever checks this page, i'll just make sure this is here.

i'm not coming back.

it's not that i don't want to; i want to, so very much. the show, the fandom, the commmunity - all of it really helped me when i really needed help.

i just can't. that fire, spark, whatever you want to call it - it's dead. extinguished, blown out, whatever. i don't have the will.

as much as i miss all the people here, and the great times that i had reading and creating and communicating, i don't have the drive to be here again. maybe it's shame, or maybe i'm just tired of this. honestly, i wasn't even a very good writer in the first place.

if there are people here who still think about me, still care - thank you, from the bottom of my heart. i wish i had some way to repay you. regidar and ponky and bikerdash and antagonist and anybody that i can't even remember now (which i feel terrible about) - thank you. so very much.

i don't think i'll be coming back online. i don't even know if i should post this, instead of just letting myself fade away. but no; if anybody wanted closure, here it is.

sorry if it isn't what you wanted. it isn't what i wanted either.

but who knows - maybe, years from now, i'll find that spark again. maybe not here, maybe not even in the brony community. but if i do, i'll probably use this moniker again, because i'm lazy. i don't know. whatever.

i wish you all the best of luck.

cheers,
Plyxe