Where in the Hell have I been? · 11:03pm January 14th
As the title above so eloquently put it, where the fuck have I been huh?
Well, I've been super depressed and exhausted for the last six months. It has gotten so bad I just want to curl into a ball and sleep for a decade bare minimum.
I know that is not something people who enjoy a writer's work likes to hear, but it is sadly the truth and I've been too much of a coward to try and come on here and talk about it. For that I'm sorry. I don't like letting people down. I don't like not posting as I really have enjoyed this story.
I have not stopped however. I have pushed on and managed to eek out 2 chapters thus far. Considering the time span of when I last posted, I know that doesn't sound like a lot. I've just been ultra super slow about it.
The good news:
I am getting treated for ADHD and depression. My doctor is also testing me for other stuff that matters more to me than to you guys. Still, I'm doing things I have left untouched for decades. (For those not in the know I am crossing the 40 bridge as we speak)
I also, am starting to churn out more and more words per sit down, which is a huge improvement. As I said before, i have 2 chapters already completed and ready to go. However(COMMA) I am waiting till I complete the Griffonian Arc before I begin to post them. The reason why is, I can tell people are feeling the lag of a story line dragging a bit on. Not for the chapters themselves but the time spent writing and getting through them. I figure if I post them up quickly, you all will not want to kill me for taking so long.
Finally, I got a desktop PC This past week. And typing on it is certainly faster than working on a phone or glitchy laptop. It was partly, though small, why i was not able to post consistently. My thumbs and fingers would get tired and my impatience at a slower than normal laptop was killing the flow badly.
What all this means to say is, I'm coming back, Baby!
Slowly, and with much creaking of joints and powdery rust falling to the floor.
As always, bare with me, and thanks for Reading.
Peace.
BTW:
Shout out to Renegade and Rakdar, as well as others for checking in on me. I'm sorry I haven't responded when you guys asked after me. Big Presh on that.
Like I've said afew times I think now. Take care of yourself, life's hard at times. We don't mind chapters being late as long as your doing ok at the end of the day.
I enjoy your work alot, and am fine with waiting. It's good to hear things are improving for you.
I'd send hugs if I could!
The artist should come before the art
Cuide su salud
You are more important than my expectation, i can wait few more years as long i know you still working on it
Hey, your mental health comes WELL before us. It's good to hear that things are progressing on that front and I hope they continue to progress.
We'll be here for you when you're ready :)
YOU'RE ALIIIIIVE!!!!
Holy crap thank you so much for still being here. Glad to hear you're getting help for yourself. I'm confident you'll pull through whatever's troubling you
I honestly forgot about you but it's nice to see you coming back.
Oh good, cause your story was one of my favorites, and a huge part of the reason I kept logging on here over the last year. I totally understand, i have similar issues, so take your time. Be well, and happy trails!
Thanks for updating us, we're happy to know your doing well (and hopefully feeling better!)
Do everything you need to in order to take care of yourself! - Work out, eat right, go to church, and drink large quantities of tequila! (Well, maybe not that last part if you value your liver.)
Also, don't get held back by us. Consider going pro with your own story when you think you've gotten enough practice here with us!
Good to hear you're doing better! Now that we know some new chapters are just around the corner. It's time for another reread.
I'm just glad your ok. It wasn't that long ago that I started treating my own issues. You yourself have helped me, I know what it feels like. If you ever need to take a break don't be afraid to tell us. We'll be here for you.
Thank you for being a joy!
Don't worry about taking to long whenever I story I loves updates after a year or more it gives me an excuse to reread the entire story.
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Appreciate that, I'm trying. Right now I am waiting for a psychiatrist to get back with me for my second appointment.
My work however, has resumed.
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I agree, but even I'm thinking six months is a bit much.
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!Gracias por sus amables palabras¡
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haha...let's not get crazy now haha
A few years
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Big Preesh. It sucks but I'm glad I'm on a better path. Thanks for sticking with me.
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I made a commitment that I would finish my entire work. If I'm 80 it will be done.
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A real answer and I don't blame you one bit.
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That does wonders for my self esteem. My Ego thanks you.
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Not feeling like I'm holding you guys back, more that I'm holding y'all back from a somewhat decent story. Don't worry it's everyday life that's the strain. Not you.
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Define: "Around the corner."
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I've taken enough of a break I think. And I will use you as the inspiration to forge ahead. If others can slog through the horseshit, so can I.
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By the time I'm finished, y'all will have this damn thing memorized
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No, if you need a break you need a break. Just because you don't need one now doesn't mean you won't eventually. All I ask is that you be aware of when you may need one.
Life is balance. Sometimes you need to weigh the other side.
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Never I shall ignore my limits!
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Also, if you don't include the yak-uza eventually I shall be very disappointed.
As many already said, look out for yourself first and foremost.
It's good to hear you're getting better.
Updates like this are sometimes even more worthwhile than a chapter. ^^
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You say that, but I'm pretty sure you'd love a chapter drop right about now.
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Dirty tease
Hey Dude, I know this is an older blog post, but I have a suggestion. I myself went through depression for a period, and it wasn't fun. I asked my family, and my parents gave me some vitamin supplements. D, Ashwagandha, B12, and Iron ended up bringing me back into the fold. Mostly iron. I later found out I had a deficiency and that was the main cause of my mood according to a doctor.
Hope this helps. I know you are still writing, and hopefully you are feeling better. This stuff worked for me, it might just for you too!
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I'm feeling much better, and I eat a lot more steak and pork now. We discovered my body needs slightly more protein than normal. Who would have thought me and Orion would have the same issue, eh? But thank you, really. It makes my heart swell to see all you guys caring about my dumb of ass.