Deaths, Homelessness, and Trouble · 7:11am Nov 30th, 2023
Boys, it's been awhile.
Let me start by saying that yes, I'm sorry for being gone for so long. It's been quite a ride. My editor (god bless his soul for dealing with me for this long) has been messaging me, and I've gotten plenty of messages from all of you as well. If you scroll down the multiple blogs I've done you can see that I've had injuries, real bad family issues, and a lot of other stuff such as bad job circumstances. In my long long line of bad things that have happened, recently has been the absolute worst.
I've tried to be able to get on for awhile now to write, but during everything that happened and even now, it was a struggle to find the time or the headspace to write. Let me explain real quick in order.
Firstly, I went homeless. Pretty big deal, as you can imagine. Bad family stuff happened, ended up having to flee pretty rapidly with practically nothing to my name in my truck, leaving myself stranded in a vehicle without much help. My cousin was able to take me in for a time, but with myself in the middle of moving jobs (and now being unable to get the next one) it wasn't exactly a smooth transition. My cousin isn't exactly known for their healthy habits either, with rapid drug use and partying constantly. I enjoyed it for a little time, as I wasn't in the right headspace, but it rapidly deteriorated fast.
I was practically abused there- not physically of course. I can hold my own on that front, but in terms of being used as basically a slave. I was made to do everything, which made finding time to get a job that much more difficult. Eventually, I was able to get out of there and get back to where I was with better circumstances.
This has left most of my stuff broken and destroyed. Luckily, my computer managed to survive the absolute onslaught of destruction that came into my room, so I've been cherishing that luxury quite a lot. I tell you, having that minor bit of ability to be able to sit and relax is a game changer. Things still aren't great here though, as I am still back where I fled the first time, but without many places to go (and it approaching winter, which in my area means freezing to death in the wilderness) it's the best place I've got that isn't my run-down truck.
This has led me to basically bleed through most of my money. The monthly income I generate from a job that I'm working online (that brings substantial income actually) is bled into the house and my family. I don't have a choice in that matter- it's either pay it all up, or be on the street, so things aren't exactly in stable condition still.
It's a sucky place to be in of course. I don't like being in this place, and in a position where I don't have a safety net with savings, friends, or family to rely on, but it's where I'm at.
Recently as well, there's been a death in the family. Sort of, as they were a family friend. My brothers best friend was quite close to us, and we were just informed he was killed by a drunk driver in Nevada during a stay with his parents. That's sort of tore us up, specifically my brother, even more. The bad luck just keeps getting worse!
But, I've got to say, despite everything thats happened; Cutting off a finger, getting electrocuted, falling through a roof, being beaten, jumped, robbed, stabbed in the leg, going homeless, and losing plenty of people on the way, I'm still here kicking. I haven't forgotten all of you or the stories I've created. They sit in the back of my mind, even if I can't find the courage to type away at the keyboard to update anything. I'm trying to change that though, very soon, and I'm going to continue writing some chapters for all of the forgotten stories (and the blazing sun, of course) to kind of bump them up again.
Life will keep on kicking no matter what. It might be slow and strenuous, and tough as fuck sometimes, but that's just the way things are. When you're at the bottom of the barrel everything else doesn't seem quite so bad anymore. First things first, getting money sorted. Like, a lot of it, hopefully, but we'll see how that goes on that front.
So yeah, lots of shit happened. It's tough, but that's the way things go. Hell, at this point, I won't be remembered on this website for my stories, but instead the crazy fucking shit that happens to me.
You know what that means though right? The dad lore is going to go crazy when I have kids.
I am sorry you went through the ringer.
Holy fuck my dude. I have no words. All I can do is hope things get better for you.
Buddy, fuckin hell, this sucks. But you'll get through it. The life goes on, and so we are too moving forward
It's awful that all this is happening to you, but you have no idea how happy I am for you to be back.
Damn man shit hope it gets better for you
gl dude. Hope things work out for you