Thoughts at 6AM (didn't sleep)

Insomnia is a bitch. I'm doing far better with my new medication, but it's also been causing me to have loads of trouble falling asleep for the last three weeks. Every day it takes longer and longer to get tired, usually ending up with me staying awake until 9AM and then crashing. Sleeping during the day sucks because there's a huge renovation in my apartment house so basically every work day is constant drilling, hammering, power tools and destruction from 7AM on. You can probably see the problem here? And even though it's the wee hours of Sunday, I still can't sleep. But I still can't do anything productive either, naturally. Hell, can't even seem to get into gaming these days. And honestly, when you're awake at 6am and realize you don't have anyone to talk to, even the folks over in the US that are lagging behind in time zones are already tuckered out... it gets damn lonely. Heck, even people I know are probably getting sick and tired of my spam on discord/steam/whatever. I would. (Please somebody be my friend! )

Okay, self-pity and ranting aside. Why did I even bother everyone with this blog? Well, there's some things I'm working on. I've had a sort of a renaissance with pony after not being around for ... a while. Maybe I've gotten over the end of gen 4, or maybe seeing how awful gen 5 is and how much better we had things back in the day, who knows. What I do know is I've never stopped wanting to write. Problem is, finding the energy and motivation to finish things I start has been sorely lacking. And it's not because I'm old! I mean I am, but that's only visible in my testosterone count, which is just a number and doesn't mean anything. Or the fact that I've had to go to the hospital twice this year. Or that I'm pretty convinced I'm going to have a heart attack if I guzzle one more Monster. (Five a day is still totally healthy, right?)

So what AM I working on?
- Last chapter for Scoopful of Dreams. It's a cute story about dreams and nightmares, which seems far more ironic every day. With that story I really tried to write something wholesome, but I lost steam. The story is inside my head, wanting to get out, but I can't put it into words. Not yet, but soon.
- On the NSFW side, I have two fics written a long ways in, but they're still a hot mess and need a lot of work. One is "kinda" done, but I'm not sure if I want it to stay at that point or if I want to write more.
- I want to finish one of my aaaancient stories from a decade ago. It's been nagging and nagging at my subconscious and just won't let go.

So yeah. This was a blog about me writing a huge rant about not being able to sleep or write. I'll take "ironic" for 400 dollars.

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fr tho, I hope things get better.