Some late night rambling. · 12:51am Mar 7th, 2023

So, uh… how are things?

You might wanna read this. Just sayin’.

Alright, look. I’ve been thinking about this for a while and it’s going to pain me for a while if I don’t get this off of my chest. I want to address the elephant in the room. Where have I been, what I’ve been doing, and where my life’s going at the moment?

Truth be told, I wanna start with my FIMFiction place, because, well, things have been rather… let’s say, dry, since not only Gen 4 ended, but also because I moved to ArchiveOfOurOwn. I know it’s not exactly an easy thing to come to terms with when one of your favourite writers decides not to come back to FIMFic for a while, but I feel that for me, the fandom and my interest in it kinda dried up after the end of G4. And while I still do love the show for all the memories it gave me and I do still consider myself one of the herd, I felt that there was more incentive for me to branch out and try new things, new fandoms, new stories. My love for writing has been sustained and nurtured by the move but at the same time, so much stuff back here was left unfinished and likely will still remain unfinished.

I will admit that I am TERRIBLE at finishing one thing at a time, because when inspiration strikes and I wanna write something new, I am all over that like ketchup on a hot dog. I did it too many times back here to count and I’m still doing it now as I’ve moved over to the new site. But that’s just one of the curses of being a young writer with big ambitions. Once your imagination fills and swells, it’s hard to keep that contained. And I am sorry if you’ve been expecting endings that I can’t deliver. Maybe one day I’ll come back and finish things off just to get some closure, but yeah, as it stands, I’m kinda dried up here in FIMFic. I’m still very much alive on ArchiveOfOurOwn and, if you wanna see me continue there, you’re more than welcome to do that. In fact, I’d love to see you there.

And personally, thinking about my life, things have… well, they’ve been a rollercoaster for me in England. I’m turning 26 this year and a lot of things still feel the same as they’ve been since I joined this fandom. I still live with my parents, I still have a brother and sister that are doing better stuff than me, and I just feel that my personal life and my writing life is gonna be a struggle to juggle. And yes, real life is a chore to handle, but it’s because it’s a chore that we appreciate what’s been going on in the digital and virtual spaces of the internet. I wouldn’t necessarily say that I’m happy with where I am in this kind of, but I guess that it could be a lot worse. I mean, I’ve been losing weight, I’ve been growing a beard, I might actually get a job in a couple of years. But yeah, as a writer, that does mean things are very… how shall we say, rickety at times. Even now, when I’m writing, I have to handle jumping between that and other forms of leisure, which sounds like I’m not focused, but really, I’m trying to make the most of the time I have left and that can get rather… hectic at times.

But anyways, I’m glad you’ve stuck around to listen and I hope that you understand what’s going on better.

As always, this is Shadowmane.

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