So today was a rather strange day for me, I gained some confidence back and now I can finally accept i'm getting at least a tiny bit better every day, even if it's just a little. Oh btw its 2018 now so that's nice, time for a fresh start, something new. Beginning of years are like this for me, full of ideas and plans for the entire year but I usually only carry out a few of them for the first month or so and then actually start a lot of them later on about halfway through the year, but anyways

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So right now ive been working a bit more on "The White Pony" as of now I am writing chapter 3, it has one interesting event that goes on I guess xD Then afterwards I have more to do, im going to possibly make chapters around 2k - 3k words long, but we'll see. Writing this story and keeping it consistent is somewhat easy as I just have to maintain the same thought process, and I still have plenty of ideas to be used, it should be going on for a while, I am really hoping on finishing it before

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I started writing The White Pony sort of as a coping thing for me, to help me deal with the depression im fighting right now. All the thoughts and words within it are me trying to express what I cant. The way I think is represented somewhat in the main character and how she narrates the entire thing, I don't know any other way to express my thoughts or how to explain how I see and think. Most of the story so far was written while I was in my most depressed states, I would write while im upset,

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I know it's rather silly, but ive been really depressed over my hair, just a little over a week ago my mom gave me the worst haircut in my life, so now I hardly have any hair. I feel so sad almost all the time, and people have no problem with going up to me and dishing out insults like it's nothing big. Then there's those lie and say it looks great but id know better. All my confidence ive ever had has been completely destroyed in that one day, and all the days that followed with careless

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