Rollercoaster

by GabiShy

Chapter 3 (INCOMPLETE)

Author's Note:

Around the time of writing this my then best friend had decided to step away from our relationship before ending it later a week later. This had caused me to spiral into a state of panic about what would happen to our friendship and the way I'd coped with all that anxiety was through writing this fan fic.

Ideas Anxiety: Stomach feels like being drained of all life
what feels like a black hole sucking her body whole
Feels like someone poured lead into her stomach.

After the encounter with her brother she stayed in the guest room shaking and butterflies in her stomach while in a fight or flight mode. Being described as on high alert at all times with hooves shaking, blood rushing up and down, throat being wrapped around by a python, small twitching, and feeling weightless as you try and keep your head and body blanched. Any of the senses would lead

The more time stood still and thoughts raced the worse the twitching and thoughts became which would soon lead to teeth chattering, eyelids twitching and worse thoughts.

“What if he never wants to be my friend again. Are we still friends? Is he gonna leave me like his deities advised? Will he forever hate me? What happens if I try witchcraft again, will I accidently hex him again?!? Or worst? What if I cause serious harm to him that he’ll hex me?!?” She said as her whole body shakes in fear before flopping on to the cusion curing up into a ball before breathing heavily

“What’s gonna happen?!? Is he never gonna speak to me again or let me know if he needs some time away or maybe… What if I’ll never learn what harm I’m causing him OH NO NO NO NO… Girl please learn from your mistakes I don’t wanna lose him he’s my only close friend I got Maybe the only way out of it is death”

She spilled into a heavy panic attack with what feels like no way off the endless spirling slide.

Comments

[Starlight Nova]

11042332
In that case, shouldn't you set it to incomplete?

[GabiShy]

11116335
Ehhhh, I’m not sure if I’ll ever come back to it but since I already had rough ideas written out I thought why not publish them to show you what could’ve been.