• Published 5th Apr 2018
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Who we really are? (or just another Sunset Shimmer background story) - FieryUnicorn42

Sunset Shimmer goes to Equestria to reconcile with Princess Celestia, however, this meeting makes her know more about herself and her former teacher than she ever expected.

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We're not flawless

Twilight is flying around the castle seeking Sunset when she finds the fiery-haired unicorn a few meters from the main entrance, sitting in the shade of a group of trees. The princess lands walk in Sunset's direction and see the unicorn is sobbing and crying.

"Sunset?" Spoke Twilight softly.

"Twilight?" said the unicorn turning to the princess.

"I shouldn't have yelled at you, I'm sorry." Said Sunset wiping her eyes with the back of her front hooves.

"Don't worry, It's ok, guess there's a lot of things in your mind now." Said Twilight sitting on Sunset's side and putting a wing over her.

"I would like to hear if you want to tell, but if you don't feel ready, we can just stay here or came back to my home"

Sunset let a long sigh escape from her nostrils.

"No, I think it's time to tell you." looking to the sky, Sunset closes her eyes, recalling her life until now.

"After all these years living out of Equestria, Canterlot, the School for Gifted Unicorns, all this seems so distant now, like it was just a dream or a memory of other life. I remember the joy I felt when was accepted as a Celestia personal student. Even if all the sadness I felt when I was a little girl, I mean a filly, her visits make my days happy, I felt I was loved. Now when I think about those days, I see that I was so trapped in the pain for knowing nothing about my parents that I didn't care about make any friends."

"When I start studying with Celestia, she always tells me the importance of having friends, to not be alone in the world, but I ignored her every time, wasn't friendship who made me her best student, was my effort, my skills, my dedication. When I came to that world, I was alone again and worse, without my magic to help. Took a long time to discover how that place works and I did a lot of awful things that I'm not proud of, but I'm not like this anymore today"

"Now I see that I wasn't a good friend to you Sunset, never came to my mind that so many things have happened to you before our first meet, I don't even care about why you left Equestria or how many years have you spent in that world. I'm sorry" Said Twilight with a bit of sadness in her voice.

"It's ok Twi, you aren't the first one who doesn't know almost anything about my life, but I think that like our friends, you don't ask me because was waiting I was ready to speak about my past. I'm not ready to tell you all, not yet, and just for you know, I'm living in this city for almost seven years"

"Seven years? When Princess Celestia told me you were her pupil before me, I thought that was a year or two, but you're older than Shining Armor, what makes you our older sister, wow."

"I'm not sure how I feel about this, we're friends and sisters, I sort of like this, at least one good thing in all this. I think I could deal with the fact that I have a little sister now." Said Sunset smiling at her sister.

"Me too." Said Twilight smiling back. "And about Celestia, what you will do? You'll forgive her?" she asked.

Sunset turns away her eyes from Twilight, looking to the ground before answer.

"Still hurts inside when I think on this, in all that I had passed until here. I stayed a long time without anyone at my side. Before you and the girls are friends with me, I was alone, most for my guilt, I hurt all people around me because I was jealous and angry, I felt angry because all they had someone who loves him, they loved and was loved back, something that I never felt. Now I know you care about me, and I'm not alone anymore, you and the girls accepted me even after all I did and I'm very happy about this."

Sunset stops and looks at her sister before continue.

"Now, after all that she told me, I can't stop thinking about how my life could be different that is today, who I could be if was raised by my parents if I have lived with my family. Who knows if you and I could be friends at my mother's school? Without has necessary you save the world from the demon I once became." Tears fall from Sunset's eyes.

"Sunset, I know you're mad with Celestia now, but I truly believe she's sorry for her mistakes, for all the pain she caused to you."

"I know she's sorry, I could see in her eyes, but me, at least one part of me don't want to forgive her for all she did, at least not now. Does it mean that at the bottom I'm still evil? That I'm the same bad pony I was before? I thought I had changed, that now I was a better person, but seems like I was wrong" Said Sunset looking sadly at her sister.

"You really changed Sunset, if you still were the same pony that one day stole my crown, you'll hadn't felt any remorse for what you did and weren't ready to forgive like are now. We all make mistakes."

"Not you. You're perfect Twilight. All that I never will be you are. You have friends who love you because of who you are and not for pity, you deserve all of you have conquered, I'll never be good as you." Sunset rubs the back of her hooves in her eyes, wiping the tears. Twilight placed a hoof on her sister's chin, lifting the unicorn face and look into Sunset's eyes.

"I'm not perfect Sunset, we're not so different, our friends love you for who you proved to be and not for pity. When I was studying with princess Celestia, I don't even cared about have friends. I had my parents, my brother, and Spike, so I don't need any friends, at least that as I thought at that time. I was so many ponies around me who wanted to be friends with me, and I ignored them. When I moved to Ponyville, I left all my friends behind like they were nothing, and there's one that I hurt more than all, Moondancer."

"She always saw me as her best friend. One day she throws a party, her first party, her first attempt to out of her shell because she was so introverted and I, the pony who few years after became the princess of friendship, the pony she thought was her best friend simply left her behind and never came back at least to say that I was sorry. After I start living in Ponyville, I just forgot all they for years. I faced so many things, monsters, the end of Equestria on so many occasions that I can't even count, but nothing hurt me more than seeing how she suffered because of me, and this is only one of my many errors. Even the princess of Friendship can be a jerk sometimes. Don't let your past or the errors that other ponies made define who you are today. We can't change the past, but can change how we react to him."

"None of us have to be perfect I guess, we are only persons, I mean ponies, we all make mistakes after all. You forgive me and I'll be a big hypocrite if don't do the same to the princess, but I need some time to process this, to accept she's my long-lost mother. Can we go to the castle now? I wanna rest a little and if I know Twilight, she lost herself easily in the books and I have to remember that exists a whole world out they." Said Sunset smiling a little.

"You really like her, isn't it? Every time you talk about her, your tone is so kind and sweet that I almost feel jealous."

"Yeah, she's my best friend. Please don't tell to the girls"

"Don't worry sis, your secret is safe with me." Answered Twilight with a wink.

"I was in her place not long ago. The last thing I want is her having to live all that I lived. Even after all I did to all in Canterlot High the girls did their best to make me feel well, to help me let my past in the past, but they don't live what I lived, so even with all the support they give me, I still had to accept that I wasn't that monster anymore, not only that one who I turned when put the crown, but that one I was since arrived there and even before. Twilly was no guilty for all she did when turning in Midnight Sparkle, she was only another victim of my acts, if I never had stolen your crown, the magic will never come to my world and she would never be corrupted by power. Is all my fault Twilight, and I have to do all I can for her stays safe, I would never forgive myself if she gets hurt by my fault, it will not be fair."

The princess stands up and extends a hoof to her sister

"Well, let's go home. The day is almost over and I guess the girls are starting to worry about us."

Sunset grabs her sister's hoof and stands on her hooves.

"You're right, thanks Twi"

"You're welcome, this is what are sisters for. Come on, you need a mug of hot cocoa and a good night of sleep. Tomorrow we can discuss what to do next"