Lost Love

by memphisgurl

To The Mare I Love

It's been a year or so since she'd broken my heart

But why still I can feel the pain inside my heart

It's like thousands of knives wreaking havoc in it

Stabbing and killing my precious heart

Will it fade away as time passes by?

Or will it just stay in here clinging myself into my past?

But for any means, I just wanted to start a new life

Forgetting how painful my past is

Holding vaguely forever in my dreams

To have someone who will save me from sadness

But my dreams came to reality

As you enter my heart whole-heartedly

You taught me how to forget the past

To live again as whole as I was in the present

But I'm now afraid again

That you might not catch me when I fall

Yes, I'm falling in love with you as you take care of me

Wishing that you will fall in me also

How much effort should I exceed?

Just to reach and touch your heart

Maybe you only treat me as a friend

But I can't stand that we will just be friends forever

But please forgive me when you know

That your friend is deeply in love with you

Three years of friendship is not enough

For me and my broken heart

That's why I'm begging for you to feel my love

Even if you don't return it back

I won't be angry with you if you leave me

Whenever you know I had broken our rule

Not letting to fall in love with each other

But my heart keeps beating for you, telling me that I must fall in love

With you

I tried to forget you in the sense of leaving

But I can't bear the pain it gives my heart

That's why I talk to you again

Promising that I'll not do it again

Why do I keep ending up beside to you?

When I know that you will not love me

I know that you loved someone else

But I'll be here, still waiting for you

I might find myself so dumb stupid

Supporting you in your damn relationship

But deep inside of myself

It kills my heart every time I hear something happy about you and him

I support you and him for whatever reason

But I can't stand to see you in agony

I tried to pursue you to not love him anymore

But what can I do, if your heart never feels the betrayal

Is this just normal to feel that the one you loved needs your protection

For whatever pain in the world can she get?

I wish there will be a time that she will listen to me

Because all I want for her is to be happy

I've tried in all means to let go our memories

A good step to move on forward to life again

But I failed again to let her go

Because I can't stand whenever she felt sadness

Why do I also feel what she feels?

I hate this feeling very much

Because all I know is

This is the reason that's why I can't leave her

Seeing her in pain is like burning myself

That's why I want to make her happy by striking some jokes

I know she laugh, but still not enough

To throw the sadness in her heart

For two years I'm contented with what we have

Because all I want is her happiness

I don't care if she will never love me back

Because her smile is enough to complete my whole world

There will be a time that my love for you will last

And I hope that when it happens you will still be my best friend

Even after the those trials we've been through

I know we can still be a good friend

But before I let you go

I just wanted to give you a warm hug

Embracing every happy memory we have

And I also want to tell you that I've been your secret admirer for nearly 3

Years

Letting you go doesn't mean we'll forget the past

It will just finish those painful memories we have

But never damaging the precious memories we’ve been through

I love you and goodbye