Nothing important! With an exclamation mark. · 8:38pm Oct 8th, 2022
I felt like I’ve been all business with my blogs lately. So many fun things I’ve wanted to post or say but thinking I should just keep my work all-business. What’s a blog anyway? I don’t know. I’m just gonna post and write whatever the heck I want to. And maybe you’ll get the occasional picture or link to what I’ve worked on and what I’m up to. If you still care to see what I have to say, I’ll try to make it fun for you by adding something funny. Today's musing comes in the shape of feathered friends from False Knees.
First up is this one. Sometimes this is what I feel writing for this site. Like a tiny voice in a big sea. But a sea that is funnily enough, smaller than the sea outside these pastel-colored halls. Writers are not really known for their networking skills. It’s why I left the hard work to publishing companies when I used to write for realsies! Haha.
I’ve spent most of today on my day off since I woke up not doing anything productive, so these next three are pretty much my thoughts on that. I get too inundated in my own thoughts sometime. Sometimes I wish I was born a simpler person. Being ‘smart’ is a bit of a nightmare. If my low IQ is enough to give me problems, I can’t imagine what it must feel like for those much further above me. 
Talking more about networking, I feel like I don’t have the energy for most things nowadays. Even as I sit down to write I have to fight back against the dizzy spell of exhaustion and sleepiness. Quite physically and literally. So imagine what it must be like to try to network. I’m sure it comes naturally to some as others like to take breaks from their work to read other fanfics or engage in the forums. But I read slow as molasses and I feel I have to give detailed and descriptive comments if I do read something. Since I personally enjoy someone taking the time to compliment my work that way, I feel it’s only natural I should do so to others. I’m also terribly shy so I don’t like to go around thanking people for adding my stories to their libraries, likes, or if they’re following me. I do wish I could reciprocate nice feelings for my work but my lack of pleasantries is my downfall.
Finally... nothing deep. I just never get February’s name right on the first try and I have to leave it to spell check every time. 
I'm an introvert, so I understand how much being around other people (even online) can drain you. It's emotionally exhausting sometimes to put yourself out there for others. But try to remember that your health should always come first, both physical and mental! If you need a break, or need to go it slow for a bit, then you should do it! There are people who love and appreciate you, and would feel awful if your health were in decline because of an obligation you felt to them. Just let others know how you're feeling, and they'll listen!
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Thank you Serinity. If I can count on a friend on here, it’s definitely you!
I’m doing good in the mental faculties department, I think. I’m a happier person since I started writing casually again. I just wish I had the energy to do some cool stuff like reviewing fics/ research and comment on other’s forum posts/ or even just leaving comments on random people’s works. Meaningful ones. Not just blanket statements. Which is why I can’t get myself to skim through stories because my brain won’t process 90% of the info that way. A writer’s story deserves more love than that kind of surface-level attention.
Don’t rightly know why I’ve been so physically tired though. I think it’s some hidden effect of a recent downpour in my area. It’s created a bit of a humid climate for a while and I’ve felt sleepier and tired-er since. Intermittently getting my sleep interrupted too, so maybe that’s the real issue. But who knows! Physiology is beyond me. I’ll write in an exhausted stupor if I must!
No plans for pauses on my work. Currently writing the next chapter of Knight of Order and detailing a skeleton for Beginning while I wait for a follow up from my artist and fixing my Mic’s settings a bit for those audio recordings. Lots to do, not enough time and energy in the day to do em.