Am I back? Fuck if I know · 8:18am Mar 17th, 2022

So, after 3 -5 years of staying away from this place and dealing with my old feelings here, My interest in my old fics had begun to come back. And oh boy, I'm in nostalgia hell.

I miss these days to be honest, having fun and writing terrible, TERRIBLE stuff that makes me cringe when I read it now. But it was fun, I met many wonderful people who I'm sure have moved on by now. It made me happy at the time.

I'm in college now, I haven't stopped writing however. Hell, I almost started writing for a career. I've grown from here and moved to AO3, Writing for different fandoms and whatnot. I CAME OUT as nonbinary and gay a few years after!! I'm basically thriving compared to then!

But I find myself coming back here often, to my roots. And damn it, Now I wanna rewrite all this shitty stuff and actually give some coherency to these stories because honestly??? Somone needed to give old me a lesson in writing.

Am I gonna do that? Eh... I'm.. Still battling with my emotions about this stuff. I wrote this stuff in a dark period of my time, and now I'm doing IMMENSELY better! What happens if rewriting makes me feel worse? I don't feel like I changed much, to be honest, sometimes. I'm still a dorky idiot inside, maybe a more chilled out idiot but still.

I do know I'll start by deleting all these blog posts. Ugh. I needed to chill out.

So, I guess if anyone still visits this page, hello, I guess. I'll be around here and there for nostalgia. Sorry for the therapy post, low-key needed it lmao.

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