The Meaning of Life · 4:19pm Jul 10th, 2021
This is my first time making a blog. yay!
hehe~
So, recently I recovered from depression. And I proudly said, I don't use drugs like "anti-depressant" or go to a Psychologist
It has been 6 years since I have this suicidal thought. And damn I really want just to end this life. Like seriously, I don't really have any reason to stay in this world.
But I still here.
I'm sorry but I'm not going to go into the detail of my journey over that 6 years. I don't call myself a suicide survivor, but damn it would be a lie to say it's not an interesting journey.
The reason why I make this blog is just to try my luck actually. who knows if someone out there read it and actually helped by it, it would be awesome!
okay, where do we start. hmm~
so here's the question. ’Why do I exist?’
It is a question, everyone, asking including you and me
Why don't I ask you instead, Anon. For instance, why do you think have I or You were born? Or the weeds by the road, or the birds that fly in the sky, or the fish that swim in the sea? This world is filled to the brim with a near-infinite amount of life forms, but what is the reason for their existence?
You might think of an answer that said "I don't know." I also don't know either. But that is the answer
What do I mean? well, there is no reason for a living being’s existence. That is what I mean
My parents exist, and as a result of their sexual intercourse, I was born. That’s it, trying to force a more concrete answer is simple sophistry(?). yea, I will just use that word.
You might say, life is an art. and all of us have reason to live. well, I'm not thinking of it that way. I'm thinking, being born without a reason is a privilege granted only to living beings. And this is a good thing
Everything around us is invented for a reason. Nobody would want to go through the hassle of making something for no reason, that is a matter of course. Computers were invented to perform calculations. GPSes were invented to guide the user to his or her destination. Phones were invented to shorten the distance between people. Military tools were invented to triumph in war.
There is no meaning to life. That’s why people search for a reason to live. You need to receive a living being’s privilege and obligation.
Say strong and survive. Maybe one day you find yourself the strength to actually receive your privilege and obligation.
?!?!?!?!?!?! First blog? But, also, we talk more about some things having to do with this?
The way I see it, you can always die another day. But once you die, there's no resurrection another day.
If I'm stuck in a car without breaks, I'm not going to aim for the wall. I'm going to aim for an open road, even if I'm still doomed in the long run.
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Sorry, but I'm not really understand
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not sure.
But, you could try and send me private message or some sort.
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He is saying what I was saying when you and I were talking earlier... life is temporary, but death is permanent.
May as well ride it out and see what I can get from it.
Seems to me...
There is no sense in ending it early, because you have no idea what lies on the horizon... but if you continue on, you will find out.
This is what I was saying is the meaning... to FIND the meaning. To continue the story, see where it goes.
Another metric by which I decide whether to commit suicide or not is to ask myself: Am I better than a dog or a cat.
Dogs and cats can't talk, right? So if I can talk, it means that I'm better than them. It turns out that I can talk. And that means that all the cats and dogs in the world have to commit suicide first before I get the right to commit suicide myself.
So, my days may be numbered. Once all the dogs and cats in the world commit suicide, I might start considering suicide myself.
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Oh, I understand now. that is an interesting way to see the world
This is kind of different, but I have this mindset to keep me from giving up life.
I want to see how far human civilization can go, so it is a shame if I don't know what the end of the story looks like.
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This is an interesting way to decide whether to commit suicide or not.
Though it's not something that I agreed on.
Just because animals can't talk doesn't mean they are worse than humans.
It just means they don't have the organ that enable them to make sounds that human could understand.
the way I see how human is better than the animal is their awareness.
Isn't it awesome that humans are the only species that realize how messed up their backbone and feet anatomy is because of their evolution?
5553183 If you took a knife and proceeded to cut out your vocal cords, would that make you better or worse? The fact is, you wouldn't be the same anymore. You wouldn't be able to talk.
In my opinion, you would be worse than before because you wouldn't be able to talk.
I think you are better with vocal cords because you can talk.
And yes, there are many things that make us better than dogs, not just the ability to talk.
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Yea, that makes sense. The 'why' they can't talk has nothing to do with it.
5553213 It's a binary question. Can they talk? The nuances and reasons and whatever don't matter. It's just a yes or no question. If you can talk, you deserve to live. If you can't talk you might have to transition to the next question: Can you read?
It turns out that dogs can't read. So, if you can read, you first need to kill all the dogs in the world before you may kill yourself.