A rant and a snapshot of new things

Id be lying if I said I don't enjoy writing. The process the creation of characters, Crafting them and building an imagine of them in my mind. Making those images act out scenes in my head then writing the process down. Its a lovely wonderful feeling. But then I move on to the next piece in the puzzle so to say. Then I look back at the rest of the puzzle and feel unsatisfied, I feel just... so negative towards them. I don't entirely understand it, or the causes behind it. But have gone through Five story ideas with each of them left by the wayside or stalled entirely. Five Stories Left unfinished. Five audiences Left unfulfilled.

That thought slowly eats away at me some days. Those Ive disappointed, And then that resentment builds back up. Towards that story or that particular chapter. I attempt to go back searching for ways to fix it and always coming up empty handed. Makes me question if its really as bad as I think, If I'm slowly loosing my mind some days. I have severe problems with motivation and Positivity towards my own work. One coming in bursts and the other seeming to leak away ever faster. I... Well I'm entirely uncertain how to fix this. Its an Issue for myself and its certainly not fair to any of you.

I feel I must apologize, as I have done so many times at least on this platform. I must apologize to those who enjoy my stories and eagerly await the next chapter, and are thus continually disappointed. To those people specifically I doubt any apology will truly suffice, Or perhaps that's my pessimism coming through again.

In far lighter news, I have had quite the burst of positivity recently. I don't know where it came from but I am going to at least attempt to wrangle and use it. I have plans for another story. I know I know. I should finish the others. Or at least declare them officially dead. But in doing that I would truly be given up on them in the latter case. In case of the former however, It has been... Quite difficult I must admit.

Take the Marines lament for example. I have a chapter I've been attempting to complete since its most recent update chapter. My aim was for a weekly update schedule for it. And then I hit this massive roadblock. I couldn't figure out what so ever how to get things to flow to the next point properly. It wasn't writers block as I wrote several other things Including the ending chapter. It was just that one chapter. It was imensely frustrating, and as of yet Its still sitting there incomplete.

I appear to have gone off on a side tangent again apologies. Back to the positive news. The new story I had the idea of was a Starbound crossover. Using the Universe as a back drop for all sorts of Adventure of the week type stories. Perhaps 2-3 chapters in each mini arc after the beginning arc of actually setting everything up and what-not. It would be far far lighter hearted than anything else I've written. And in doing so im hoping to have it weigh less on my mind. Serious plot points still occurring and trying to maintain a nice happy balance. Its almost as much a literary challenge for myself as it is wanting to write a good story. I am hoping this lighter tone will assist me in... Thinking positively about my own work

I would enjoy your thoughts on the idea. as well as any encouraging words you may have as well as your thoughts on the rest of what I have said. It is an Issue i must work through and I am asking for help in that endeavor

Until Next time my lovely Followers. I bid you farewell, and a happy day!