I'll probably leave forever · 10:02pm Jun 10th, 2021
I doubt I'll get any sleep that night. I was supposed to go to bed, but fuck it.
What's going on? I'm planning on leaving. For good. There was a situation between me and some friends (I won't give out nicknames for obvious reasons), after which I have one conclusion: I'm selfish. Anyway, they told me that directly. And it didn't get to me. I was overly worried about them, preconceived notions of what they were feeling, or what they might be feeling, when in fact... They felt the opposite of what I assumed. And that can't even be called empathy. Because I wasn't putting myself in the other person's place. I was assuming what they were feeling, what they might be feeling. All this time I thought I was a good person, because hey! I care about other people. But it turns out that I only cared about others because it affected me. That I felt bad about myself.
This is the reason for my decision... I just think I'm a terrible person, okay? I'm going to leave, but I don't really know if anything is going to come of it, because you know very well how I go about making plans. Probably nothing will come of it. Anyway, hang in there. I'm going to try and get some sleep on this fucked-up night...
You’re not a terrible person no matter what you feel or anyone tells you, if your friends call you selfish or a horrible person, then they're probably not real friends. Reach inside yourself and think about who you are, I guarantee that you will not find selfishness within yourself.
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Read it again, bro... I am selfish.
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Except it really doesn't come across that way. You're not selfish at all.
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You don't know the situation between me and my friends. It was really screwed up. But I'm not gonna talk about it.
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It's ok. *hug for a friend*
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I don't think I deserve for a hug, but thanks.
I really don't think that makes you selfish, at all. You still cared.