I have lost motivation to write "The Shimmering Guardian" so I have a gift for you

Hi everyone.

It's been a while, so what's happening with "The Shimmering Guardian"?
Well...

I've lost motivation. Simply put.

I've also lost the plot. So if anyone wants to see it completed, it'll have to wait until I write everything on paper, if I can get to that point. The whole story was based on a dream, I've forgotten plot points, and I have forgotten how my characters act. I have no idea how to describe the training that Alexander does, but I think I know how time flows. Rereading through, I still don't remember most things. The dream didn't have My Little pony characters, so that was also an added complication, but I wanted it to take place in the Equestria Girls' world when I decided to try and write it.

I don't know how to competently write. I want to write, but every time I try to continue my work, I stop because I can't figure out how to write certain parts. It gives me anxiety, honestly. Even in chapter 3, I had trouble with pacing, and I can't seem to get it right. The dialogue, I feel, is stale, and badly written. I'm sorry if anyone wanted it to continue.

It also doesn't help that I'm isolated and I can't ask anyone to see if it's any good. Most of the people in my life hate My Little Pony to the point of not wanting anything to do with it, including reading it. I've been dealing with depression, and it's dragging me down as well. I really wanted to write this story, and if and when I get the motivation back, I may continue. But right now, I just feel lost.

I'm sorry.

As a gift in exchange for your understanding, here is a piece of art I made back when I had my dream.