My Thoughts on 2020 and Moving Forward

Hello everyone.

This year was something else. For all of us, I bet. We are facing a pandemic, literally staring it down. Our mental health took a dip. But, such is the sacrifice to fight our battles. But I promise you, we will come out on top, because it's pain that we grown from.

2020 tried to show us who's boss, but guess who's still standing? We are. We made it this far. We did. We can go the full mile. Why? It's because if we weren't strong enough, we would have given up long ago.

Last year, I was brought down. I'm not ashamed to admit it. I blamed others for the pain I was in. In the end, it was no one's fault. Sometimes, things happen. Sometimes, it may be good, others... But, to hold onto that pain, you're just killing yourself, from the inside. It took me a long time to figure that out myself, but only because the pain was clouding my vision.

I don't know who needs to hear this, but, let go. I know it's hard, believe me I've been through it. Let go. That pain is corrosive. It will eat at you until nothing is left. You will still have the good memories, the ones to smile back on. It won't remind you of the pain it brought you, it will make you proud of yourself because you helped you and that's okay. Helping yourself is okay. Treating yourself is okay. Feeling bad for yourself is not. Sure, it may help to figure out what hurts you, but other than that, nothing could hurt you more than beating yourself up for something you couldn't control. Things happen.

Take a moment to grieve one last time, take that time. Feel the emotions. Cry. Cry, don't hold onto it. Go ahead. I'm here for you.

It's in the past now. We can't change the past. But, we can change the present. Don't look back, unless you're looking back to smile. Live in the now. Forgive yourself. Tell your parents you're sorry, tell your family how much you love them, how much they mean to you. Or, forgive them. You never know when's the last time you'll see them.

Life is too short to grieve the past. Nothing can change it, but you can change the present. The first step is to accept what happened. The next, is to let go. Then, move forward. I know we can get through this.

Thank you for reading. Sorry for the long message, but I feel there are people that need to read this.

My inbox is always open. You can always talk to me. Tell me your story. Shared pain is always better than sole.

I guess I'll see you all in the next post. Peace.
-D