random Musings, revelations and quarantine

So, I think by now, there isn't much remembrance of yours truly since I post something once in a random blue moon.

but I haven't given up writing, just been scattered all about the place as of late, especially since this whole lockdown nonsense has thrown my life schedule for a loop.
My son got the rest of his school year canceled for the year
I got temporarily laid off thanks to my state's order to shut down restaurants/bars
and I've been a lost, broke, bored soul ever since everything went down last month.

lately, I've been picking up the pieces and putting a schedule together to get back on track, writing has been filling most of the days, well, nights actually since I have to share my computer and I get it back to myself in the evenings. It's been difficult to settle myself down to focus on what I love doing (well, a walk around the property with some indica helps slow me down at least)

I have been slowly writing, I supposed to be writing right now but I randomly felt the need to make one of these to give some sort of pulse of life on this platform in between slowly picking away at making videos and sessions on various steam games.

well, to begin I have succumbed to a strange chat room platform that is still in development and been randomly logging in to attempt to chat with other folks, so if you ever found yourself on this platform,

Pony Town

See the resemblance here? Now, I don't know how popular this game is on FIMfiction, but when I'm procrastinating on my writing and don't want to deal with frontline brats on Mordhau, I'll be hanging out on here, where exactly? not sure, the map seems to change every time I log in.

so anyway, I've been meaning to bring an older blog and mention a follow up on what actually happened, apparently, my now ex, out of a fit of quiet jealousy and didn't like the fact that I was on my laptop more than spending time with her, she poured a glass of water all over the keyboard to fry everything inside the laptop. reference: https://www.fimfiction.net/blog/579016/waterlogged

i know, useless trivia and that was years ago by now, but I can't help but remember that because someone wanted to be the center of attention they wound up breaking a potential source of income because they believed that I had an "addiction" to gaming.

anyway, lately I've been reaching out to the internet asking on how am I supposed to keep my self organized and "motivated" when it came to writing and all I got back is pretty much can be summarized as:
"write or do not, there is no maybe."
"IF you wanted to be a writer, you shouldn't of had kids!"
"You should follow the example of the great authors and become a heartless hermit! lock yourself in a dark room and do not come out till you have a masterpiece in hand!"

They should have a warning to never ask Reddit for advice on anything XD

but among the black-white responses, I did find some gems that explained pretty much what I already knew and figured out on my own. that Is to find the balance and pick a day to build me up to pretty much gear towards a night of writing. it isn't supposed to happen with perfect flow on the first night, this kind of thing takes time and setting a schedule will help me plan ahead or at least prepare to be flexible since I am also the only healthy, young able body member of my household to make runs into town for fast food and Walmart supplies and do other chores my parents can't really do alone.

like I said, it's been pretty rough, but, it just brings me back to the days after graduating high school. long, slow days doing whatever to pass the time and dreaming on becoming an accomplished author. then I get distracted with one thing or another then forget hours later.

However, to become anything great, it takes a shat ton of work, research and mix-matching to pull off some cool stuff. it's just fighting the guilty anxiety of knowing that I can be doing something else at the very same moment and wanting to just randomly do something that is easier for the brain to work on.

hmmm, I think a binge of Improvement pill is in order.

anyways, I should get back to my incomplete stuff and hammer out what I can before I decied to toss it aside for something else tonight.

Good night and good luck
also wash your hands, face, and your....hands again!

Comments

[Backlash91]

DOOO IIIIIT !!! I wanna read all your stuffs!!!!

and this inspires me to keep writing my stories as well!!

Miss ya floof!