I care about you - to all of you. · 5:52pm Feb 21st, 2020

You know, there's something that I want to say to all of you, what I feel needs to be said.

I...I care about each and every one of you out there. I don't care if we've had our differences, we don't agree on the same things, our beliefs are different, our ideology conflicts or if we generally are on the opposite side of the barricade, but I care about you. We haven't met, likely will never have the chance to meet, but that doesn't change a thing because you're a part of my life on here, which makes you relevant to me. In that event, I genuinely say you matter to me.

We're all different, but we're still just people. We've been together for years, some being more permanent residents than others, but in the time I've stuck around and met all of you, I like to think of you all as friends. You've been there through some hard times, thick and thin, and it's meant more than I could ever say, even if we don't know each other personally.

I'm, well, I'm not the easiest guy to get along with. Granted, I can be pushy at times, overthink stuff and be quite pretentious and preachy with my opinions on the world and anything that irks me, but I was surprised to see that many of you understood where I was coming from instead of telling me to kill myself or trolling me, slamming me in the comments and attacking me. I'm not saying that hasn't happened, but it was nice to see not everybody was looking to pick a fight.

So, I wanted to take the time to tell you that I love you all. So many of you, when I was at my lowest and on the brink of killing myself cared enough about me to talk me out of it, trying to reason with me and to get me to think clearly in spite of my mindset at that time. If I had nobody to talk to me then to comfort me or to confide with, I likely would have drank myself to death. For that, I'm so grateful, even if I'm still emotionally scarred and battered from it.

Thank you all. I sincerely love you all for everything you've done, from supporting my work, expressing your opinions, for being friendlier than most have been towards me, choosing to stick around when things got tough, taking the time to help me when I required beta readers or testers, etc.

You all matter to me. Life is still shitty, no doubt, but things will only get better if we make it better. We've got to believe that much, right?

From the bottom of my bandaged, cracked, English heart, I thank you. 💛