Opening up about my mental health · 3:17am Oct 12th, 2019
I've been struggling with depression since 2014, after graduating from college in 2013. My course deals with a lot of politics and international relations and I honestly did not see myself working for the government.
In 2015, I enrolled at John Robert Powers to take up the advanced personality development program. It helped me to get to know myself better such as my advocacies on feminism and LGBT rights. While I was waiting for the schedule of the final session, I was at the lowest point of my life by being unemployed for 2 years. I've searched for jobs online and I had a few interviews and they decided to pursue other applicants.
With the help from my parents, I got training as an intern at an HR agency near my house for 3 months in 2016. Eventually, I became a full-time employee as an accounting staff and I'm still working for them right now. I finally completed the personality development program and they told me that I can come back after 2 years to take the refresher, free of charge.
However, as time went by, depression keeps coming back due to my job having no progress whatsoever. It was a dead-end job where the tasks are the same over and over again and it became a robotic routine for me to wake up to go to work and go home to get some rest.
In 2018, I had to deal with 2 workmates who took advantage of me by passing their work on me, not noticing that my work computer is succumbing to damage and I have to prioritize finishing the work that is nearing the deadline. I went home to vent my anger by destroying 5 things. My mom found out and I told her what happened. She advised me to report this incident to my boss, which I did. After that, I blocked those workmates on social media, never wanting to speak to them ever again. I even yelled at them that they're banned from my future souvenirs.
Fast forward to 2019, depression went back to haunt me once again, along with dizziness, neck pain, back pain, and tension headache. I've had suicidal thoughts running around my head several times, but I didn't let that get the best of me.
I'm planning to resign from my current work in December and I will take the JRP refresher in 2020, as well as seek help from a mental health professional, hoping that these issues would be addressed and I would get myself back on track.
Hope you get well soon and fan those gloomy clouds out, so your field of happiness may blossom to give you good filled day. Congratulations on passing JRP and good luck.
Sorry to hear that, I've struggled with depression my entire life, probably what drew a lot of people to this happy show.