A word to all my fans... · 8:37pm Feb 12th, 2012
I'm hoping that those of you who read the latest chapter of A Slice of LIfe have done me the courtesy of also viewing this. For that, I thank you sincerely.
I like to think of myself as an honest pony when he speaks from the heart. Normally, this is not very often. As previous companions and friends have known, I have a habit of masking my own emotions, thoughts, and feelings. Needless to say, this drove my girlfriend mad. Constantly. Honestly, it got pretty funny. But I digress,,, allow me to speak openly, plainly, and honestly with all of you.
Half of writing is showmanship. How one can present crud as a masterpiece, and make others seem it as such. People look on this works and wonder how one could do it so fast, so easily. The writer must never let the reader know the hours one pours into his work, fretting thinking, and of course, deleting. The writer must never let his readers know how stressful it is to live up to all of their expectations. His must never let them know that he may beat himself up mentally, emotionally, and psychologically for not achieving the same quality or output or gathering as other wtiers. To never let them know the despise he inevitably feel for small indulgences, such as spending an additional thirty minutes chatting with friends instead of writing.
With this now being said... I am no longer a writer.
When I first began A Slice of Life... I didn't think it would be read by anymore than maybe 10 people. Maybe five or so comments. They'd laugh at what I percieved an ill attempt at humor, maybe give me a few three stars for good effort. I'd grin, laugh to myself and with my friends on this site on how another "masterpiece" fell through the cracks, and we'd laugh it off till the wee hours in the morning, being silly and goofy as always.
Instead, I posted in the early morning, and returned several hours later to find a veritable storm bogging up my computer. Honestly, it was like the equivalent of winning the lottery. Since then... this.... story has transformed into a monster, with over 16,000 views, over 1,100 people tracking, 53 favourites, 271 ratings that equal 4.9 star rating and 228 comments. Almost overnight, almost new 70 people are now watching me.
And we're only on chapter 2... I'm almost afraid of chapter 3 now...
I'm a relatively young writer here in the fandom. Im in my sophmore year of college, and Im currently on academic overload, so Im taking more classes than I really should. I work to pay for college myself, and I also have numerous family duties (such as taxicabbing numerous siblings). I love writing, but I also love reading. And cooking,and baking, and walking on beaches, and playing Skyrim and watching vids on youtubes. Hanging out with friends, and stargazing, and many many many many many other pleasures and things I like to do in my freetime.
*sighs* But lately... I've been very bitter about myself. I took a short break from writing... Since then, I cant help but my skills have gotten.... rusty. That I made a fatal mistake, and I have alot of ground to cover. I see other writers here post massive things day after day after day. So I've been beating myself up, and insulting myself as a writer. I am my own biggest critic.... and I am a mean and nasty, and bitter critic. That razor tounge gets turned on its owner.
You guys have alot of expectations for this story... I dont want to let anyone down.
With that being said... I'm no longer I writer.
I dunno what I am now. I broke the biggest rules. I don't keep up showmanship. Don't worry, I will continue to write Slice of Life. Its fun to write to for it. :3 I have alot of jokes and ideas planned, and some really funny scenes I wanna put on paper. But... I also have alot of other things in my life that also need to get worked on. So the chapter will come... they'll come, don't worry.
Will they come as fast as people want them too? I dunno. Will they be like 10k words each? More than likely not... I'm not writing a novel here.
I guess.... I'm just trying to say that I've finally learned to stop beating myself up. I'm my own writer... so I'll write at my pace. Not someone else's. Besides, initially I started this story for fun. Fans were a wonderful surprise, of course, but if the story is no longer fun for me to write.... than how it is any fun for you?
As always, Ilove criticism and ways to improve my writing. Im still learning after all...
...and I'm learning to fall in love with writing all over again.
Cheers to all my wonderful fans whose making this story fun to write. You're a wonderful bunch.
~Wisdom From the Dawnscroll~
A man whose lost is purpose isn't lost. He just needs to find a new purpose.
I'm not going to read all that, but I am going to say KEEP DOING WHATEVER IT IS YOU'RE DOING
I feel if you write to amuse yourself, then what you write will be enjoyed by others.
It's kind of funny. Your blog in which you say you're no longer a writer is much more well-written than my own writings when I try my best to actually write well. I just hope that over the eventual hours I'm going to spend writing my own fanfic (which I've only spent about 40 minutes on writing about 7 paragraphs which I'm in no way satisfied with, lol) will eventually get to me and make me a better writer, so that maybe writer-me will be able to compete with non-writer you.
unlike SOMEONE I read it all and I must say.... that I won't go on a speel. instead,I'll just say, do what makes ya happy!
Write it how you want it, when you want it, for as long as you want it. No good story was ever written by a committee and (to paraphrase a line from Studio 60) none of the writers you admire were ever worried about public failure. They wrote for themselves first and then shared it with others and, if the others didn't like it, too bad.
So stick in there!
Being a perfectionist isn't always a good thing, and besides the story is great.
And it doesn't need to be like 'sanity not included' from machinima. If you haven't seen it you should go watch it, its awesomely funny.
You never stop being a writer. You just let the story stay inside you. And it's okay if it has to stay there a while, as long as you don't forget it in your heart.
13394 Agreement.
But yeah, I've written a few stories myself, (None MLP mind you. And I honestly got kinda freaked when my first one had gotten about 7 or so fans and despite the fact it was a one-shot I still tried to think of a continuation when the few readers enjoyed it. Had a fan's help too, who's now a rather close friend, too bad we couldn't think of a continuation without it being dark as hell or turning into deus ex machina...) and you really don't want to let them down, so I can see where this is coming from somewhat, just amplify how I felt by a hundredfold I guess. ...Oh dear.