....I feel like I owe everyone an apology.... · 10:32pm May 28th, 2019
....I haven't treated people very good lately, and I have some regrets... I haven't been myself, and I've been at a complete writers block lately due to personal issues... I guess I was venting or ranting through my writing, but....if you want me to stop, I'll stop... not like I can make much of a difference with them anyway... It's just all I could really figure out what to say, and....I guess it kinda helped in a way, ya know...? but I shouldn't just....rant like that.... it's not good for anyone...
I am getting the help I need, and I have a loving and supportive family and wonderful amazing friends to talk to, but... I just can't get myself to open up, even though I want to... it's hard to figure out why, but it's like the real source is just....stuck behind a door that is locked and I can't find the key... I never should of taken anything out on others, so....for that, I guess I'm just gonna leave...probably forever.... everyone is just better off without me messing up everything....
I know you all want to help me, but....you don't know what it's like to fight my pain... so I'm just doing everyone a favor if I just die....
Nobody does know what your pain feels like. But we still feel pain nonetheless. We know what it's like to feel absolutely miserable, and we want to make sure nobody else feels that way either.
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....but what's the point if you can't help them with their pain over taking them....
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We can't physically do that. The Lord can.
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...yeah, right....