Things I can be proud of

Hey together,

I've been rather silent again. Mostly that's because of my tendency to work on different stories at once and only get a little bit further each time I pick up one, but that's just how my mind works these days.
The biggest reason is that I'm not satisfied by my writing. That can be a good thing, since it makes me think about what I wrote and try to fix as much of the garbage I can. On the other hand, it's very frustrating that I can't describe my own writing as anything else but garbage.

So tonight, I'm following an advice I got from a friend and instead of only finding errors, I'll try to talk about what I am proud of for a change. All while trying not to sound arrogant.

I know I'm a decent writer at best, compared to many who post her regularily or sporadically. There's many reasons for that, not being a native English-speaker definitely takes a big spot. But, I believe I have imporved over the time. I've learned how to fix flaws in my stories before they become an issue. I wish to believe what I wrote recently is better to read than what I started with. So that's the first thing I'm proud of, that even if it's only a little, I have improved at least in some parts.

My writing is far, far away from being perfect. I can spend days and weeks nitpicking, worrying and mulling over a single passage. I had to accept that I, personally, will never be 100% satisfied with my own writing. That sometimes, it's just impossible for me to put all the stuff from my head perfectly on paper. But I've also learned to accept that sometimes, 95% is already a huge lot. Today I'm proud to say that I can let some flaws just be flaws and progress to the next part. That doesn't mean I'm not trying to fix these flaws, but I won't let them pull me into a full-stop. Even if a story is not absolutely perfect, I'll post it instead of burying it in the endless depths of my flash drive.
Because, others might still enjoy it, maybe even like it. Maybe someone reads it and gets a smile out of it, and isn't that on it's own already worth it? Best point in that case, my one-shot try on something new with "And everything in between" which turned out with outstanding positve ressonace. Even if I still feel a bit unsure about it.

Another thing I'm happy and proud of is the fact that far more often these days, I get little moments of satisfaction from my writing. Not one story is perfect. But a few chapters come very close, some passages are exactly as I wish them to be. Chapter 8 in "Melodies of Friendship" is maybe one of the best I've ever written.
And that sounds so arrogant that I immediately feel the need to nitpick and retify this, point out the obvious flaws it still has. But I won't. It felt good to publish this and I think I might have a few more moments like this waiting for me. Even if only 10 people or so ever read it.

I'm looking forward to getting chances to improve further, because I'll keep writing of course. I've got two more complete archs for "Where life leads us" almost ready to be published (one of them today even). I've got "Alternative Origins" worked out so far that I can continue writing, but a new chapter might be while still. The next chapter of "Melodies of Friendship" is getting closer to being finished as well.
Also, I've been working with a friend recently and we're writing together. Maybe I'll get to talk about that more soon.

Until then, hope you all have a great time and thank you for keeping up with my babbling. I hope you get to take the chance and look at the things that make you proud as well. It's amazing how sometimes the whole picture chan change when you just find another angle to look at it.

See you all soon!
TalkingToMyself.