Info dump/Rant · 10:48pm Oct 4th, 2018
I don't know how long it's been, I could look it up but fuck it I'm tired.
I've barely made any progress on my story, so sorry about that. last couple of weeks have sucked.
I hate my job. Being a mail handler associate sucks. Theirs too much movement, and by that I mean reassignment to do something else, been working 4 12 hour days for the past two weeks and is likely to continue well into January, with December having me only having only one day off in the week, and when you ask a question, you get 3 different answers. Just yesterday, I was told that even though we are supposed to push the carts to prevent shoulder injury, that I should be pulling with one arm because that way I can see what in front of me and not crash into other people and things, even my supervisor said that to me. Problem is that it's hard enough to pus the damn things when their loaded with letters and shitty wheels. I tell them I can't because I don't want to hurt my shoulder and they understand; but my main gripe is that it's these double standards and not following through on choices made on how to do work, really pisses me off about my job.
It puts a massive strain on my body and because of that, it's hard to do any real work on my story and my YouTube channel that I haven't even been able to make one single video, due to my constant changing mind and not being pleased with how my voice sounds.
My supervisor, noticed that I was tired and probably upset, I can't even tell how I feel, and he wants to know what's up. That puts me in a difficult spot because I can't really express myself for fear of getting axed, but I decided to say that I was tired of walking the death march, as I decided to call the 12 hour days, and I make a small comment about the soldiers of WWI marching to war, you know a small joke. Then he mentions that he was thinking of the Industrial revolution and how the workers their had it worse and how far unions have come, basically telling me not to take things for granted. He's right, I know he's right; I tell myself that this is my job and it needs to get done. Thing is though, what he said to me can also be taken as don't settle for less like those workers who fought for union rights 'cause I'm sure that there were some people that said to them, 'be grateful for what you've got' instead of stirring up trouble. Pretty sure the loyalists said the same thing to founding fathers when they spoke of revolution and independence. Of course I don't tell him this because I know better, I know not to get into an argument, but it sucks that I can't really express my feelings.
And of course I think about if I start bitching then I'm gonna be labeled as a worthless millennial who does no work and just whines, even though my work ethic is by far my greatest quality that I bring to the table but whatever.
I still keep showing up, not with a smile on my face but not a scowl either, and I do the work. I do it because I want the money to be able to afford food, a place to stay, and new computer toys like this Xidax computer that I may be getting this year to replace my Area 51. Because in the end, all I can do, all any of us can do is this:
If you managed to read this, you are a real trooper
Are there any other jobs that you like? Maybe you can look for one when you have the day off?
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What I really want to do is make a living making game videos; and I have heard from the guys at work that once you make regular, code for becoming a full employee not and associate, things get better. Like only being told to work 2 extra hours instead of four and being able to bid for new jobs within the office. It's just that it's gonna take a while, like a year or two.
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Wish I could do more to help you. But if anyone can pull through, it's you.
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Thank you for your concern.