Lack of Updates (Rant Warning)

It's been a long while since I last posted a blog and there are several good reasons why not only have I been silent the last several months but also why there haven't been any updates on the tagged story among others. I am surprised by the frequent notifications in my feed that it's been faved by readers here as well as the occasional watch I get. Truly, it makes me glad. However, that's where the happiness stops as well as the start of the lack of new chapters.

You probably think that, just like I mentioned almost every time, it's due to little to no motivation to write, or just some writer's block I'm fighting through (Sometimes.), or because life is keeping me busy and leaving me little to no time to get a few sentences in. While some of them are good reasons, there is more to it and they're not the top reason why.

The most top reason is "rewarding those who deserve it". In case you're confused, let me explain in a way as best I can without sounding insulting. It's what I think and feel about the general public on the internet. Just recently, I had an encounter with someone (who I no longer want anything to do with anymore) who whined to their followers in a Blog Post regarding me on another site. Though I will add they never mentioned my name, it was still about me regardless given the situation. I sent them an apology for stealing their story, which I have done without thinking first and could never figure out why I did it in the first place. Of course, this incident happened 2 years ago. I did my suspension time for it here, and during that time I was writing out a sincere apology and waited until my suspension was up so I could PM it to them. They never responded back, which was understandable given that it was a recent infraction at that time. They also had blocked me on any site we both may be on, including here possibly so I was not certain they had seen it despite it went through.

On a different site 2 years later, I was just minding my own business faving artworks I like when I came upon a few made by the same user. After 2 years, I had originally thought that they might be a bit more forgiving and would hear me out. I was also conflicted whether to talk to them or just let it lie. It doesn't take a genius to know which option I took, like any other dimbulb. Sadly, the moment I gave them a shout complimenting on their submissions (A comment on a userpage not different as commenting on a user page here.), they blocked me there as well. They probably didn't expect me to be on that site as well, but...

Here's where it gets really gritty: Apparently, they did read my apology as mentioned in that very aforementioned blog post I said before giving you that sob story above, but they weren't, in their own words, "feeling any pleasantries whatsoever and give the satisfaction I'm looking for", even though they admitted the apology was sincere. I guess some people aren't and/or never will be forgiving even after giving them time, but that's not what upset me the most. They think I was treating them as a villain due to blog post I made one time on the same site, whereas I said no such thing to villify ANYONE. After that, as well as to add salt to the wound, a last hard kick to the balls and a bitch slap to the face, the comments came in from the followers as well as the very main reason for lack of updates and why. The things they said... I cannot bother to repeat them here because IT FUCKING HURT ME TO THE CORE OF MY VERY BEING. What's more, rather than tell them to stop it or ignore it the user joins in and comes up with more false claims to further villify me. I had enough, but it nearly broke me apart as well as change my perspective completely on the general public of the internet. As it turns out, while people are being kind to others on the outside, they aren't so much so on the internet and social media. People are and will never be true to themselves and it goes to show that everyone is, and I quote, "a Great, Big Bag of Dicks" everywhere they go. Because of this, I took back my apology and "washed my hands of the matter" indefinitely. If and when they try to reply back on amy site I'm on or at least comment on this blog post, I won't hear it and follow this golden rule: "Treat those you want to be treated". I was being nice, or at least tried to after 2 years, and it blew up in my face.

I know what I did was wrong, and I was willing to accept the punishment as well as manned up and apologize for my actions. Just don't go indirectly spitting in my face and make up lies to other people just to prove you're the victim when you already are. It makes me feel like apologizing isn't worth shit anymore. Did I also mentioned that after I sent the apology, I got a PM from the site moderator the next day with a warning for harassment? (Eyebrow twitches)

If you're still confused and wondering what this have to do anything with me and my stories, I'll simplify it more: Why should I reward people for their bad behavior? Why should I do anything good if will just influence bad people to do more bad? Please do not take this the wrong way nor as an insult, but merely as the HARSHEST TRUTH ABOUT THE WORLD as well as how I think and feel about people in general. If only I didn't learn this the hard way...

HOWEVER, I do know that, like me, there are so few of you out there in the world who are very kind and true to themselves, especially those who follow me and my stories. I know I have issues and have made mistakes in my life and on the internet, some bad and worst and yet despite them you're willing to go out and forgive me for it, still believing in me. I truly love you all for it.

That is the very reason why I have not worked on the stories, and yet the loyalties I got from those good people who read them shouldn't be going to waste. There are some days where I get thoughts about what to write next for Mare in the Woods, only to get shot down by my thoughts about those few bad people reading it. It's so conflicting for me.

If any site's blocking option could not only prevent users from PMing or Shouting to the user page, but also keep them from seeing their works like how Facebook does with their Blocking, then it would make it easier for me to update so only the good people can read them, like my followers, if only a little. Otherwise, it's just easy-read for everyone, which is bad in my perspective.

Now you all understand, and I do apologize for the biggest and worse inconvenience I'm making here. I know this sounds more like an excuse and you could be right about that, but to be completely honest-to-gold with you...

... I just really don't care anymore, but thank you anyway for listening to me.

This is Artemis Black, formerly known as Orion Light, signing off.

P.S. Trump is a fucking moron.