Life Update · 6:23am Sep 3rd, 2018
Pretty sure you guys noticed the sluggishness of updating both The New Mentor and Maiorem Imperii.
Well, it's currently crunch time for me. I'm transferring to a university next fall, either Cal Poly Pomona or Cal State San Bernardino, because we're in debt and the tuitions for both of these universities are cheaper because I'm a local. All I gotta do is focus on my math courses (Because math is my main weakness), and finish the required classes to transfer to a Cal State. English and History aren't a problem for me and Sciences are either or. I'm not bad in Science, but I ain't Julius Robert Oppenheimer. I do work on both stories occasionally, but I also have the problem that I have so many ideas in my head that I spend more time scouring for information instead of writing the fic because I have the tendency to look for things to the smallest detail. I even found myself looking up the parts of the M4 when I realized what I'm researching either won't be in the story, or will be too small to be relevant. I hate myself for looking at things too far in the future instead of what's in front of me.
As for other news, my sister has had serious problems lately. All of her friends seemed to have abandoned her and the people she tried to have connections with (people who work for companies like Hasbro) rejected her. She's frustrated that all these people from her year in Art Center College of Design were able to get jobs like in Disney, but she's having problems finding one. I don't know what she's been doing in her room for hours. My mom said she's crying and wants to be left alone.
I will be very honest as her younger brother, my sister is actually mean and very selfish. She likes to take advantage of me and is a serious hypocrite. Not to mention, she loves to criticize her classmates work, saying it's ugly, but praising her own. (Of course, she doesn't tell them that, she says that privately to myself and my parents and yet, these are the people getting the jobs and not her.)
Her "friends" weren't good people either, but I don't think my sister gets the concept of having friends. Friends are people who are willing to help you and look out for each other. Friends don't take advantage of others and always help each other in any way they can in their time of need.
I heard that my sister and her "friends" go to expensive restaurants and everyone must pay a fair share of the bill (Even though they knew my sister is poor and only eats less than her required share). Meanwhile, my friends and I don't do that. We always take turns on who pays the bills and we don't go to expensive restaurants because we all know not all of us can afford expensive restaurants. When one of us are in trouble, we pitch in to help. When two of my friends start arguing (Because they're in a relationship), we step in to make sure it doesn't get ugly (They ended up separating in good terms). What I'm saying is, my sister isn't choosing her friends well and are merely befriending people for their connections.
Even with all of her faults, I still love her and want her to be happy and succeed. I am willing to be by her side no matter what. In the times we fought, I let her hit me multiple times but I refuse to hurt her in retaliation. When she insults me, I just laugh it off. When she has no cash, I'm willing to give her my money I earned from work even if I'm low on cash. When she needs food, I always take time off to go buy her food. I even clean up her car so my dad doesn't get mad at her, I pay for the gas when I can, I help her with her resumes, give her advice, clean up the house when she wouldn't, etc. I do all these things because I love her. (Someone is out there thinking dirty while reading this. Fuck you for thinking that.)
What I pray for is for her to change her attitude and her way of thinking. I pray she is more humble and for her to be more wise. She may feel down because of all of these rejections, but you know what? Walt Disney was rejected early on, so did Michael Jordan and Oprah Winfrey. Failure is life's greatest teacher. Just keep moving on because you will eventually find success. There is no shame in failing as long as you keep walking with your head held up high and learn from it.
Every day is a new chapter waiting to be written.
The story is yours, so go write it to your heart's content.
"Life's a game made for everyone, and love is the prize"
-Tim Bergling, "Avicii"
Dont worry about us just focus on your math.
Sorry to hear about this.
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