Another Update... A Little More About Myself and Why I Don't Update Often · 5:09am Apr 11th, 2018
Hey, guys! It's Prism again!...
I know, I just posted less than an hour ago, but I feel I should share some info with you on myself and my final reason for not updating that much. Here goes: I have depression and anxiety. That's not new information to anyone my age, though. And a few months ago, I went through my first HUGE breakup with my girlfriend. I dated her for a year and 9 months before she broke up with me. I was devastated, but we still remained friends. Then, on the first day of school, she harshly cut her ties with me entirely, saying my anxiety was too much to handle. I never really blamed her, and I still don't. When I get anxious, it's hard bringing me back to normal. So at that point, I was constantly upset, not motivated to do anything for a LONG time. I used to draw all the time and improved my craft with her, but I couldn't find inspiration or motivation to do that anymore. I started to heal, then a few months later, I got a boyfriend. He is one of the sweetest and most supportive people in my life. He really allowed me to open up about my problems and was one of the best relationships I've ever had. However, just about a month ago, he broke up with me after 6 months of dating, but we are still currently friends and that was a huge relief to me, but it also hurt. And it hasn't stopped hurting. I had multiple instances when I thought of cutting because I was so close to giving up. But I didn't. I'm still holding on with all my might, praying things will get better from now on.
Anyways, I just thought I would share my story with you because I need to make sure I'm also still taking care of myself so I don't fall to rock bottom and never come out. I also don't want to keep you guys in the dark about my stories and status. But I love writing, and it really does help me, so I'll still be on here either reading or updating one of my three stories. If you have any comments or concerns, I'm always open to listen.
Thank you all.
Best Wishes,
Prism Sparkler
Prism, take your time. All those issues are serious, and I would honestly suggest finding a therapist. I have gone to a couple over the years, and mostly they have been helpful. No one can "stay strong" on their own forever. Honestly, I have always hated that concept of "Staying Strong." I t seem to imply that at any point someone dealing with all of that was ever weak. Most people would crumble after half of what you described let alone all of it. By definition, the fact that you face your life everyday with the anxiety and depression indicates strength, not weakness. You are already strong, just remember that even Atlas had to put the world down, once.
If writing helps then wonderful, we will all be glad to read whatever you post and help give you feedback in any way all of us can, and if no one else will, I will. I applaud you seeking out a co-writer/editor, I think that would be a wonderful Idea. I honestly wish I could do it, but I don't have the time to give that the attention it deserves. My girlfriend serves the same purpose for me a lot of time. But all in all, just please do your best to stay healthy and safe. That is all anyone can ask. I hope this finds you well and you continue to do well. But again don't concern yourself with being strong, because you already are.