Knock-Knock. Who's There? I'm Sad. *Walks off and slams door after dropping microphone* · 7:09pm Mar 29th, 2018
This isn't something I've been feeling lately, people, but for once, I'm going to talk about it and say it how it is.
I'm kinda upset right now.
I just got back from my grandparents' house and I was talking to her about my little sister and some of my family. I don't know if you know about it from previous blogs, but I have a baby sister aged three, going on four this year. I've only met her around four to five times, maybe less. I had a sad and annoyingly true feeling that I know I can't hide because it's so obvious.
I probably won't see her grow up. I maybe won't see her at all when I go through future life, and it's horrible to think. To her, she probably doesn't know that she has two brothers, and if she does, she likely won't be able to see us, either. We are all siblings that will likely never see or know each other as we age, and that knowledge is just heartbreaking, to say the least.
I don't know about you, but I'm pretty unhappy right now because of this and some other things I've found out about that I don't want to hear. It's so horrible that I'm considering getting shit-tossed in the bar, anything to take my mind off of it.
I even wrote a song about it last year in my journal because I had to get it out.
Fuck. Just...fuck.
I know, man. I'm dealing with something sort of similar myself. It's... tough.
Here's to knowing it'll get better, eh?
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Sure hope so, even if I'm just bringing myself into some crippling denial, but I'm hoping you'll also do fine.
This just shouldn't have happened, and I'm never going to be able to forgive or ignore it.
That's awful. I can't imagine what that's like *hugs*
I'm really sorry to hear that, perhaps writing the occasional letter would help the two of you keep in touch even if you can't visit her?
I'm just shooting off random ideas here...
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Much obliged. It truly is a horrible reality, and about keeping in touch with them, I could do, but for some personal reasons, I'll have to be discreet with delivering the occasional letter. I'm suddenly feeling happy that I bought that typewriter. I swear, regardless of any odds, my little sister at least deserves to know the truth of her older brothers.
I'm only upset that she was brought into this entire situation, and at the moment, she doesn't know what's happening because she's still incredibly young.
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The situation sounds pretty bad, look I know i'm a complete and utter stranger. But if you need someone to vent to about stuff, I always got a free ear to listen.... or a pair of eyes in this case... So feel free to message me whenever. If you want to of course.
I do hope the situation gets better, and I hope you have a good day today.