Feb
21st
2018
Deja Vu · 5:37pm Feb 21st, 2018
I don't know if I should call it Deja Vu or not, cause I don'y know what it is, but has anyone been so addicted to something, that their brain starts showing them possibilities or hallucibations, cause my brain has shown me at least several conversations between, get this, ponies... I've seen two conversations between a light green pony with a light yellow mane and a sapphire blue pony with a green mane... and the second convo was between unknown ponies, I couldn't find them only heard then. I've felt somethings for no reason, even though I am bipolar, I felt like I was being betraed, I felt like I was lied to and I felt like I was someone else... help...
Okay, steady as she goes, my friend. Those ponies, I can assure you, are not real; as you said, they're just auditory and visual hallucinations, don't talk to them or interact with them. The feelings make it sound as though you're having an episode of some sort. Ride it out as best you can. Take any meds that you've been prescribed for your condition. Recognise that what you're feeling is not rational. You are not being betrayed, or being lied to. All that is happening is a slight chemical imbalance. You are who you are. Hold fast.
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But I don't think they are, see usually when I have an hallucination, I don't know if I'm dreaming or not, but when I heard and saw these ponies I was completely awake, unless if I'm lucidly dreaming everything, which I'm pretty sure I'm not, so I don't think they were hallucinations, cause they had some "after effects", and usually my hallucinations drive me to be angry, these make me want to hug them and ask questions, not attack them or others
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For the felling of being lied to is more of a sense of an out of body experience, like I was someone else, elsewhere and I felt like this person was lying to me, or them and it's not like I know I'm not me, this isn't my mental problems playing tricks on me, I know what's happening and I feel like I need to do something. Currently I'm writing a journal of these current happenings, as I live on. Also, I'm told to take medicine, but I don't as it makes me violent.
4802386
I'm all with what Blade Star says, please try to get better.
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I'M PERFECTLY FINE!!! HONESTLY!!! THE TWITCHING IS A SIDE EFFECT, DON'T MIND THE PILE OF BABY CORPSES BEHIND ME!!!
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I fine, seriously, but these ponies (been five so far, today alone) seem less like a hallucination and more like "visions", like the seem to understand things I couldn't at my current knowledge or even in my own physical and mental intelligence, like basics of magic and basic's of spells, and I have little to no clue what they be talking about.
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What are they saying?
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I'm writing it down as a story, named "Journal", but the gist of what they speak about is either everyday stuff, dumb jokes, or like they were sitting down in a class, and that's just at my school, I've heard a conversation on my bus and two at my house. None seem to be repeating characters always different, and that's just if I can see them.
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When you can see them, are they far away or close up?
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Depends, I've seen some hovering just a few feet above me, or farthest was 10 to 15 feet, but I've heard a conversation and couldn't find the source of the voices.
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Hmm, this is very interesting. Have they ever so close to you where you could touch them?
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Yeah, the ones that hovered above me by like two feet, and I'm a tall kid, standing at 6'1", and I was sitting down so about 4 and a half feet off the ground, but yeah I could easily touch them but I didn't out of mostly fear and confusion, also because it would look shady if I reached up to grab nothing there in the middle of class.
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So this only happens at school?
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No, I had a conversation last night at my house, except I was speaking the voices, but not an accent thing, more like it was someone else speaking but I was the one mouthing it.
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So at home, do you see them or only hear them?
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I've only heard/spoke them, except unlike elsewhere I remember little to none of the conversation, only that technology has something to do with it.
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Me personally think that his is extraordinary,hey, if you ever hear a conversation, you should write it down on anything before you forget. This could be some good stuff you're missing out on.
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Trust me I am, I'm writing a journal on here and I'm writing everyday and things that happen on those days, cause I have seen some and heard things that shouldn't be possible for my brain to guess.
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Are you going to tell anyone that you write or keep it to yourself? And one more question, is this affecting you in any negative way?
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I just uploaded it, I want others to join me on this not keep it to myself and I'm only going to tell my only other brony friend and my most trusted friends, and personally I don't know if it's affecting me negatively, health wise no, emotions wise I'm a train wreck...
4802386 I know it seems really interesting, but I'd really advise against interacting with these hallucinations. While you may 'know' that they aren't real, it will nonetheless affect your grip on reality, as evidenced by your out of body feelings. I'm not a medical professional, but if these hallucinations don't pass within the next 24 hours, I strongly suggest that you talk to a doctor. Just...keep your head, okay? I'm worried about you.
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I fine... just a lol bit woozy... nah but seriously though if I feel like mental state is being challenged I know what I need to do.
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Guess I'm going through this alone, can't have the stupid journal up, so whatever, I guess it doesn't matter cause no one else cares apparently, no one cares about the fact that I'm basically talking with ponies and hearing intelligent conversations, I sneezed and a pony said bless you, THEY CAN HEAR ME AND I CAN HEAR THEM, but I don't know if they know that I can see or hear them. They are real, and they stop me from being violent physically, I tried playfully punching one of my friends and my fist stopped inches from them, all momentum gone. They inpact our world, and their world impacts me. I watched a pony walk through a door in the middle of the hall, and I thinking it was fake walked faced first into an invisible wall. But whatever, no one cares so I'll just keep it to myself.