Why am I taking this seriously? ٩(-̮̮̃-̃)۶ · 6:56am Dec 2nd, 2017
When it comes to writing this fix fic, what is my actual goal? I remember a certain Blue Earth Pony messaging me on why I want to write, is it because I want to fix that fic that slighted my honor? Or does it go deeper?
Is it petty for me to continue for that reason?
I admit it took me a while to answer, and it was a long answer, but amazingly it wasn't about Mykan. I told him, that for the longest time I've admired successful people, from Elon Musk, Warren Buffett, to JK Rowling and etcetera; the current game changers. Their speeches, presentation and talks have brought me to tears.
And the many things I've learned from them, is one: they never stopped learning about the subject they choose, two: no matter how many times they fall they get back up (bankruptcy will not ruin them, they become wiser with each betrayal, and they take responsibility for everything), this is something a few people can do; three: you really have to be a Renaissance man, you have to build many core skills, but try your hardest to not emerge as a master of none.
By discovering that, I wanted to follow their example and never stopped learning, and honestly by doing so I never thought it would make me happier. There are many factors to people's misery but it saddens me how resigned they are to their fate. But for me I simply couldn't accept this, I want to be more and blogging about this makes me feel like I'm jinxing my dreams. And yet, it feels liberating since i've always kept this to myself.
And what is my dream? There was a time I would fantasize about stories in my head all day, but social pressures were getting in the way, and I've quietly dropped that dream. I never took any lessons to cater to it, right now I realized how lucky I am to see that was a wrong move, and I can fix it. Which is why I'm blogging about my learning progress.
When I first watched My Little Pony, I thought it would be very generic, instead it was absolutely groundbreaking, not because of it's all female casts (I couldn't care about gender), but the messages in the end made sense. This was a breath of fresh air from all the grim dark fantasies and the current reality I'm in.
So I said to myself, maybe this can be enhanced further, and I made that my goal.
My plan was not to go out and destroy the original badfic, but instead I want to give it a heart, and my challenge was, to work within the parameters of the original. When I finish this, I didn't want it to be a simple fan fic, I want to elevate it with the skills I possess. I want to make a storybook, like what the kids do in India, and they publish a lot of stories. But alas my skills in art and storytelling are still inadequate.
I really find one point perspective harder for some reason.
Sometimes I feel frustrated, I'm not learning fast enough, and sometimes I feel like my best isn't enough. I also want the story to be great, and because of that I have a difficult time writing it.
I find it ironic that my passion paralyzes me (paralysis analysis). So far this is what I've learned for the whole week.
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Oh and something happened, except I found it funny now that I think about it. Nine hours has passed since I last replied to a friend, however since we are friends from all over the globe, my timezone is different.
Don't get me wrong, it did get me a bit riled up. I was panicky at first because I believed all my progress would be removed, but then I found out it was only for eleven hours, even if it doesn't get appealed I could always wait it off because, well...
By the time I got banned it was already 12 o'clock midnight, I only knew about it because I was cramming to finish the handmade Christmas decorations for the office, I only go to Fimfic to check for any notifications. I can't even go to any website for the whole eleven hours because I'd be busy sleeping and be at work, like as of right now. I'm only free at 4:00 pm and by that time I'm still commuting without wi-fi which takes another two hours. So my advice to you stalker you? Find out Manila's timezone first and catch me when I'm actually on the computer.
Listen I accept responsibility, but I just had to comment when I found out about Flurry Heart... That poor baby... I was physically repulsed about how insensitive that was handled. God I can't get it off my mind...
Sounds like a good Plan and nice Drawing
It's okay Cherry. Don't let it get to you.
Any problems, let us know. We're always here for you.
If you are writing from the heart, and are writing because you love it. Then, you are indeed writing for all the right reasons.
Hey you are doing great!
I am glad to see you trying your hardest out there.
It's always nice to breathe life into a world that actually truly needs it.
And yeah... I honestly refuse to acknowledge the "scene" any longer.
Thank you Brony Commander I promise I'll read your fics. There's just a lot on my list to read right now, but don't worry I enjoy your fics, don't feel left out now.
Sorry for answering late guys, I had to finish up a lot of things to do for Christmas.
Sorry for answering late guys, I had to finish up a lot of things to do for Christmas.
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- Thank you Purple I'm so happy I have friends like you, this time I'm gonna do things right, and really put it in my mind to finish this and make an awesome story.
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- Legend you inspired me to do this, thanks so much for always being thoughtful, right now I can't wait to finish reading your fics.
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- You are absolutely right Senior Corn, we should move on, though it is very stomach churning. I know can create a better story, I promise you I wanna be the one to help you make that e-book. :)
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Thanks.