Thought my phone was unresponsive got into a screaming match cause of it · 5:26am Nov 2nd, 2017
Got to 3400 words for next chapter. Would have written more if my night didn't turn into a mess.
Guess phone was in a five hour update. Or it got frozen in an update. Which A. Should not take that long and B. Shouldn't happen and C. Never happened before since it looked like it was frozen in the boot up screen of my phone. So what did I try to do? Oh mom look at my phone its acting up so let's take it to the phone place tomorrow. Like I don't know semi normal people that have lives and want to get done with their busy night as quick as possible.
I also had a mental breakdown when my mom's old boyfriend, who still hasn't got his stuff out of our house, hates all dogs, and also has continually sexually harassed my mom because that's what you do I guess in his world where he thinks my mom and him haven't broken up and he gets free food out of the deal, tried to take my phone to fix it. Cause like him, if someone says the words "electrical" or "my device has a problem" he tries to fix it. I mean it probably is nice to him, but its awkward, makes him not leave our house that much sooner and he often almost breaks our stuff fixing stuff he "can fix".
I had a bit of a mental breakdown where he got angry at me and I have been generally furious for nine months that he hasn't taken all his crap from our house so I told him that I was just telling my mom my phone was broken and that we could easily take the phone to the phone place tomorrow cause that'd be easy. I'm all about easier and he's an electrician so I guess he thinks he knows how to fix a phone. Which its a phone true but I don't trust him around electronics- sure he would probably take out my battery which I don't think might be possible or at least difficult since new phones batteries are like welded shut with their batteries- but sure he thought he could fix my phone true.
Which I doubt cause all his projects my mom has used him for aren't great or still halfway broken and anyway he normally has this stuck up horrible attitude so when he started talking about how I have an attitude I went so do you. I was so angry at him that I was literally shaking. Yeah I'm so pissed right now. He's literally the one person that I actually get and stay angry at. Though it is mainly because he's treated my mom like garbage and I don't react well to that. Also I tried to tell my mom there might be a problem and what did he do take the phone out of my hand and treat me like an idiot. Not like I was researching ways to see if my phone was broken for an hour or trying to avoid going upstairs but I just wanted to tell my mom that there might be a problem and that we could deal with it anytime since I never get calls and texts anyway so I wasn'tn worried just curious as to why my phone has been acting up and weird.
Not have a screaming match with him. I have an attitude yeah, everyone does, without some kind of an attitude you'd be this uncaring shell but confront me and call me an idiot? I might have a bit of a trigger. As in there's fights where I still feel bad about it and its my fault but all I wanted was to explain to my mom calmly that my phone had been acting up for a week and was currently doing this goofy thing. And then he lorded over me like infallible Old Testament God and I got angry. Not a proud moment since I am usually really good with dealing with people. Or maybe I'm super sarcastic and he can switch sort of well meaning sarcasm which is a coping mechanism into full blown annoyance and anger.
I'm tired and I'm angry. Don't want to write more. Also almost wrote a day and a half of words really quick and want to keep at least a general sense of okay quality in this marathon so writing while tired, livid, and having an hour long panic attack?
Yeah no. I know when to stop and that's when my wrists are feeling tense and nervous. And at least this fight wasn't about how I was worried that he'd drive us into a ditch, or about me sitting in his designated chair by accident, or about how I accidentally ate his food. Or how he tried to hurt my mom's dog cause she was annoying him by barking. Seriously I may have an attitude when he shows up but I at least have reasons why I try to speak to him as little as possible and try to avoid him at all costs.
Sorry for the rambling but this is how I write when angry and needing to deal with this as soon as possible. Also on a lighter note to end off this mess, I think I might be allergic to cats. I have a ten year old cat that I have had for that amount of time and well I think I might be developing an allergy to either dog hair or cat hair, I don't know which but maybe cat hair cause when I get upstairs or near my cat I feel like my eyes are on constant burning fire and they water for hours and I sort of a bad cough. Not like I can't breathe or something cause that'd be a way to go- accidental fatal allergy to cats, but man I feel messed up when I'm near a cat.
Haven't been tested for allergies so this is just me wondering out loud but at least this is way more of a funny story than the first one.
...wow...
that guy sounds like a huge ass...
At least my mums old boyfriend didn't make this bigger dick of himself...