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Sparkletop Rainbows


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Sigh... · 5:59am Aug 5th, 2017

Sometimes, I feel like my family doesn't understand me. They keep telling me to push myself and socialize with other people and I feel like they're pressuring me which makes my problem worse. I have trust issues which makes it harder for me to get close to other people. My grandma always snaps at me for being so antisocial, but I don't say anything because I love her. She doesn't know that I have social anxiety and that I've gone through depression. Even though I'm out of it, I feel like it's following me like a ghost. My family tells me to keep my problems in myself, but it hurts. Whenever I have to talk to someone, I feel like I'm suffocating, I can't look a person in the eye, because it makes me too nervous. I'm afraid that I won't be intetesting for them, I'm horrible at making conversation in real life. I feel really insecure about my body, and the voices in my head keep telling me that I'm ugly. It's mostly because of my mom, because she makes comments about my body. Everybody thinks I'm boring and a freak. My mom makes it like being shy is a bad thing. I really hate myself for it. I feel like all I want is pity and attention. Maybe I'm just a spoiled brat who wants everyone to listen to her. I'm really confused and I don't know what to do, I feel like the whole world is against me.

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Sadly there's on easy fix for your social anxiety its something you might be able to help with meds but it wont ever go away. Only advice I can give you is if you want to try to meet new people try in one at a time till you get to know them its easier to handle that way. Also know there's nothing wrong with how you feel. not everyone will get along in a big group. Just know that you're not alone.

I used to be shy like you man, but lemme tell you, I've been through what you're experiencing right now. But I just thought to myself accepting being shy and standing there doing nothing, isn't really gonna do anything so, I pushed my guts at the top thinking positive and trying to be cool and talk to people, my brain might say "ur ugly n stupid, ppl thinks ur dumb." Then I tell my brain shut da f up and I'll prove you I'm not. If ppl tell u ur ugly or think you're a freak either brush them off or tell them "Why do you care? this is how I am and I accept it because I'm being me, not some fake ass bitches." or prove them they're wrong, smack that in their faces! You are the one in control of yourself not them, this is your own life and your own decisions and IT IS NOT theirs to control since they have their own lives to control. I know you think it's hard but it's easy and I'm not saying it's easy because I've been through it. Don't think about how people will think about you, grow some guts tell them you're being yourself and you're proud of it!

My aunt comments about my body too but being the rebel I am, I be like "My body dude, miinnneee. not yours, noooottt yyyooouuuurrrrrrrsssssss. mmiiiiinnnee haha get it? it's not yours, soo don't comment." I'd say it in a funny way so I don't get hit or somethin. And also don't be shy, sorry but being shy really IS bad, like this guy is squeezing you to an edge and he got a really big space, you won't be able to say PLEASE MOVE cuz ur shy, so don't be shy and plz do say it politely...don't be a rebel like me I just legit keep moving the guy until he learns I'm being squeezed, or either I gave him a death glare but if he's still not moving, oh he's getting it, I'm seriously gonna cause him pain, I'm gonna hit him with my elbow and I regret NOTHING, yeah don't do that, I'm the only one who do that so pls don't do that.

If you don't tell them what the problem is, they won't be able to help you; if you do tell them the problem, they may be able to help you.

Also, you seem to be unlucky -- unlucky that your parents may not be very good at their job. A lot of times when something is wrong with a child, it's the fault of the parents. Here's a channel that may have some info on situations similar to yours.

The best option is to change yourself; only you can change your own behavior, directly or indirectly; I'm the one who made myself the person I now am, you can do it too as long as you believe in yourself.

Hey need someone to talk to?
PM me if you wanna.

4624550 I guess I could try that

4624557 Thanks, Dewy, I really needed that! :twilightsmile:

4624854 I did try to tell them my problem, but they made it feel like it was all my fault. My family tells me to keep my emotions to myself, and because of that, I can't express myself and I feel like I'm exploding. But I can't help but feel like this is all my fault. My parents left a big scar on me, but there were other things that added to it too.

4624957 Yeah...

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