realizations · 8:44am Jun 25th, 2017
so a long time ago in....... 6th? grade, maybe 7th. I had a very traumatic even happen to me. I was cornered in the locker room by three boys who told me they were going to rape me. this has had huge impacts on my life. mainly I cant even get dressed in my house without holding a knife in my hand. but I realized something, that summer the school recommended for me to go to this summer camp....... and my best friend........ I think that they did it to get me to not think about what had happened to me. well jokes on them becuase now im mentally unstable and (just figured out it was 6th grade) im going to end up. holy shit im going to fucking end up in prison, I going t fucking kill someone. well jesus crist I always knew I would make a difference somehow I guess im just going to kill some people then.
in order of how much I hate these people
Jake
Adyin
Adyin
Adyin (yes fucking three of them)
Joe
ummmm that girl from fifth grade
the girls on the bus that said they were going to try me to a tree and have wolves kill me
finnly
that lady who think shes a cop
archabo
seth
aj
tyler
ummmmm who was the principal? roberts?
I tried to be nice but it didnt work so im going to be violent. I really hope there is an afterlife becuase I want to meet the devil. maybe ill go to heaven, not only do I do good for my whole life but with my last act I made the world a better place.
Casey Anthony should be at the top of that list but thats not really personal.
PS, if you try and alert the police ill just kill them if they show up
Please tell me this is a joke, this has to be a joke right?!
4582591
oh how I wish this was a joke.
4582595 Killing is something you can't come back from, you do NOT want to go down that road because you will never come back!
4582598
im going to die anyways might as well make the world a better place with it
to be honest im sad we dont have the death penalty here, my last words wont even be immortalized
4582599 And you can make the world a better place, but not like this!
4582600
yeah I tried but it isnt working. the world stull sucks and I cant do anything about it
4582602 What you're going to do isn't helping, it's just going to prove them right!
4582603
this will prove me right! im not just a loser a lowlife a faggot I am someone to be feared and respected. maybe they will want to be my friend now. perhaps i would let them beg for forgivness
4582604 LISTEN TO YOURSELF! DO YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED AS A MONSTER?!
4582607
no I want to be a hero, and I will be. just no one else will understand why.
4582608 That's it, either clean up your act, or when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to contact the authorities, they will track your IP, go to your house and arrest you. I'm saving you before it's too late.
4582611
whatever call the cops I want to die
4582614 For what it's worth, it was nice knowing you, when you were still my friend that is.
4582616
we were never friends ive never had any friends
4582619 What about Derpy?
4582620
no, no one cares for me and I care for no one. its the best way to carry on. nobady cares about anybody they just pretend to get along until they arent going to get anyhting from that person
4582623 ...
4582627
listen im sorry, and while I still feel like semi ok., I didnt take my meds last night and im having insane fucjinmg mood swings
4582630 so you're good now?
4582631
ummm I think so. the sun did come up a second ago, and I do get sundowning
im going to try and find my meds
well I mean its not exactly sundowning but just moodswings at night
4582632 I'm sorry...
*hugs*