Stress Reliever · 4:18am May 3rd, 2017
Stress...
Stress never changes.
A few days ago, I got into a fight with an asshole. This fight keeps playing over and over and over again in my head. It angers me... Everything about it.... Its not because I lost and its because I won. Its the fact I had to fight at all. To think I could get so mad be never actually do what I want about it. The gory images that pop into my head only make me angrier. I shouldn't think of murder but it just happens. I realize I'm insane. What can I do about it? I'm not willing to throw myself in the nut house. If it ever came to that.... I'd just go even crazier than I am.... I don't deserve this bullshit.
People nowadays can be pure scum. They don't care about each others well being nor their feelings. We as the human race were so high on our horse until we noticed it got us no where. So we went backwards and acted like primates all together. Sadly, even apes and monkeys are more intelligent than us. I'm pretty sure they don't kill their own kinda either. No one is perfect.
The way life works is wrong. We should not be scared to walk down the street in the bright beautiful daylight. We should not have to protect ourselves from violence by being violent in the same manner. We should not have to fear betrayal from one of our own blood. But hey.... "Thats life."
I'm tired! I'm not ready for life but I'm living. No.... I'm dying... We are all dying! For once I want to lay down and actually rest in peace... But that would mean I'm dying... Think about...
I want peace in my head and in my bed. Peace in life and peace as a wife. Peace for my mom and grandma whos gone. Peace for the weak and peace for the meak. Peace in this world is way overdue. The peace that I want is deep within you.
..... I think I'm done.... I'm going to get some water and go to sleep.....
To TheBlazeBrothers:
Still crying.... I'm know you were here yesterday for me but everything hurts.... My headache got worse.... Sunday could've went so much smoother than it did and you know it.... I just want this pain the go away.... The fact that we were lied to and treated so disrespectfully by two spoiled man babies pisses me off! But for what its worth... I'm sorry you lost a friend in the process.... Or at least what use to be a friend....
Don't do this! You have a lot going for you.
It's sad how messed up this world is. I'm not sure the details of the fight, but some things are worth fighting for. As much as we would love peace, as hypocritical as this sounds, peace is something you need to fight for. Show your family, kids, neighbors, town, city, and so on what it means to truly have peace. Show them the kindness that very few have seen.
Please sister don't do it,i know it's hard but we are here for you,We are a famillys o if you need someone to speack, we are heree for you
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4518362 I wasn't planning to kill myself this time. I'm just too damn stressed out. Thank you both for being here for me and willing to talk.
4518222 One day we can all learn to love one another. What a day that will be.... What a day....
Ahh the day when violence is not the answer--Darwin
Everything will look better--Kasper
People will be better off--Solaris
But alas, there is no rest for the weary--Flareinight
Only pain and suffering--Outkast
The world as it is now is not very beautiful--Sparks
This is hell walking on Earth in disguise. This is the calm before the Armageddon. And there is nothing we can do about it--The Blaze Brothers
*hugs*
Also, nice fallout reference
4522435 I made a reference o Fallout?
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Yeah.
War...war never changes. That's a fallout line
4524902 I knew that..... Hehehe...
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Well, intentional or not, this was fun :3
4524993 Thanks.
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Your welcome :)