Lost

This is what happens when I am given time to think all the pain I locked away comes flooding back yet I can't release it no matter how much it hurts I wish this nightmare would end no matter how much I want to I can't cry I want to show that I am not as strong as they think I am I want them to see I am in pain sometimes and need a shoulder to cry on but I have forever locked my pain away just to be strong for them but slowly everyone leaves and I am alone again destined to never have a friendship.

Comments

[LightningSword]

Believe me, I know how you feel. I feel like that every day. You're not alone.

If you need to talk to someone, I'm right here.

[Everfree Bliss]

4315316 Thanks

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

I know that feeling but you gotta stay strong and determined OK you'll make a best fwend soon trust me I know bad ass holes from good people... And nowadays there are few

[Everfree Bliss]

4318441 thank you and ya their are a lot of bullies (that's what my school was before I got home schooled and still is).

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

4318918 in my school people act good when they actually are using you they are assholes

[Everfree Bliss]

4319026 Same why can't some people be nice without motives!?! >.<

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

4315474 I know a few people who are actually good to me though and I would trust then with my life you just gotta find them that's all

[Everfree Bliss]

4319747 heh yeaaa friends even my closest friends I am the one to be leaned on they always seem to look at me for answers it's nice and all but what if I need a shoulder to cry on when my friends need help and I don't know what to do? Everyone I have looked up to have hurt me so I have been scared to feel the pain again. Heh ever since I was little even people older than me looked up to me just because I got high marks learned to read in pre-K and had an extra finger doesn't mean I am great or anything it just means I'm... different. I helped kids who had trouble learn those things not because the teacher asked but because I like to help but it seems a lot of people I have met seem to put me on a pedestal. vignette3.wikia.nocookie.net/mlp/images/c/c6/Princess_Celestia_in_her_throne_room_S5E18.png/revision/latest?cb=20151012095557 I am sorry I am rambling.

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

4320217 I do it too sometimes

[Everfree Bliss]

4320650 Yeah well I hope you are having a good time and I tend to ramble on and on and on when I am tired or bored.

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

4320676 I wish for you the best my friend

[Everfree Bliss]

4320806 thank you

[Shadowthehedgehog86]

4321149 no problem