Stuck in a rut · 11:00pm Jul 31st, 2016
I've been doing some thinking about my future lately -- about what I want to do with my life, where I want to go in life, and what I want from my life. I'm twenty-one years old, still living at home. My final year of my BA starts in September. The day's coming, and it's coming soon, where I'm going to be going out on my own. So I've been trying to think about what I want from my life, and the truth is... I don't know.
Every time I try looking into my future, everything after "graduate college" is just... blank. What kind of job do I want? Don't know. Do I want to get married, start a family? Maybe. Do I have any ideas of what I want to do? Sure, but those ideas are just that -- ideas. There's nothing concrete, nothing I can hold on to and work towards.
This is starting to concern me. It'd be one thing if I was a teenager -- nobody knows what they want to do with their life then. But I'm twenty-one, for Christ's sake. I'm soon to be a college graduate. Surely I should have a firmer grasp on what I want from life by now? I'm worried that when I do go out into the world, there'll be no doors for me to open. No bridges for me to cross. Because I can't see them.
I'm thinking I need some proper guidance with this. First thing I do when I head back is probably going to be making an appointment with the careers counsellor, and I'll be talking to my parents about it, too. Because I can't shake the feeling that if I don't get a clear direction for my life set out soon, I'll basically be jumping out of a plane without a parachute.
What are you getting your BA in?