I failed

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[HolyCross9]

(Gives V a big, strong, stress-squeezing digital hug)

[Parukia_de_Bolivar]

*sigh* I know the feeling so I can somewhat emphasize. I myself was an up and coming percussion major when I first got out of high school. I applied to quite a few universities who had MAJOR credibility in the area of study I was pursuing. I ended up being accepted to all of the schools, but I also had to audition each of their music programs.

I tried VERY hard... I really did. but in the end, I failed.

I took a year off of what I loved doing and tried doing other things while still going to school (I ended up just going to a community college after that.) and sort of wandered.

It was on my second year of being at the college that I finally got off my butt and decided to audition for my community college's program.

Now, I actually didn't find out about the program until around a week a couple of weeks before the date of the audition and when I finally did, I kept in touch with the program directors for more information and found out that there was VERY little time to prepare ANYTHING...

But I had to try anyways...

I ended up borrowing a snare and a xylophone from a local church to practice non-stop for a week and a half, except for when the room the equipment was in had to be used by others.

And then came my audition.

I was pretty rusty at the audition. It had been around two years since I had done ANY kind of formal music exercising (the last week of non stop practicing not counting). I had barely a week to prepare ANY pieces and ended up doing two : One for snare, and another for Xylophone.

Now, you may thing it's pretty easy to do. I mean, it's totally just snare and xylophone- I could have just done a couple of simple etudes and maybe some major/minor scales- that wasn't the case for me.

for me, in my mind. I had one phrase.

Go hard or go home.

I performed. performed hard.

Of course, I had my times of ... stickling and such during the audition, but I didn't let it stop me. I just yolo-ed it as if this were my last chance. (in my mind, it was, the music web is VERY big and people know EVERYONE)

and then it all ended. I don't remember the exact comments of what was said afterwards, , but once I finished, I put away the equipment I was using and politely walked away after answering a few questions.

Little did I know, that this one audition would pretty much change my life for good.

It's now a year later. I've actually done quite a bit and met a TON of new people and made a bunch of new friends.

Honestly, I'm kind of glad I didn't get accepted into the university programs right away, looking back.

If I did, I wouldn't have been able to met all of these wonderful people who are now in my life~! They helped mold me into the guy I am today and I hope to continue studying with them until I am able to transfer.

I've seen alot of new places, and even performed alot of pieces I hand't expected to play at a community college program~!

I hope SOMETHING positive came out of this big huge wall of text.

The point I wanted to make is this:

Don't let this be the end of things. Sure you didn't get exactly what you want, but maybe it just isn't your time yet? Start again from another point and work your way up. The experiences you'll be sharing will surly be well worth it, whatever it is you wish to do. We all have those big ambitions of making it big and mayhaps, starting big, but most of the time, life is just going to get in the way and we need to work around that. Working around that will make WHEN we make it all the more sweeter. Even IF you didn't make it to school, A, School B might suit your needs alot better and perhaps give you something school A doesn't have.

Anyways, I HOPE I didn't bore or annoy you too much, I simply wanted to share my own experiences and maybe lend a POV form somebody who has experienced something similar. Sure, I can technically take the auditions again, again, and again, but the musicians web is HUGE and well... there's almost so such thing as second chances in this world ^^