Anxiety and an Update Three Years in the Making · 9:18am Feb 21st, 2016
So for the last two hours I have been constantly looking to see if my first fanfic in over three years was been accepted. Now it is past midnight and I have to get up early to go to church ( ugh ), and I probably won't go and sleep until it is accepted. I worried that no one is going to like it or no one is going to even be interested by it. Its pretty much how I feel before presenting an essay at school, I know its going to be fine, but I'm still worried. I already have the story all planed out but not yet written. On top of that, I have oneshot I completed a few weeks ago that I have been hesitant to put out.
I other news, my Dad who has been gone for 10 of the last 11 months in order to complete his last tour of duty for the Air Force is coming back in a few weeks. When her does get back, me and my family are going to Dallas for spring break so I may not have time to write anything for that week. After said trip however, he's not going back with us to California and instead is going to Louisiana for the Air Force. I at least have someone else to talk to about sports which is a blessing.
Also, three of my relatives have gotten cancer since August. My cousin who is the same age as me was diagnosed with lung cancer though she is thankfully getting better. On my Mom's side, I have an uncle who has liver cancer, but they suspect that he has cancer somewhere else as well, and I have an aunt who has stage 4 stomach cancer. Both cancers are technically a death sentence. Not only that, but my grandma was been having severe heart problems. So I could have at least two family members die this year.
On top of all of this, I'm currently in the final stretches of my senior year of high school. With all that has been going on, I've just been phoning it in this semester just to get over with. I've been screwed over by the scheduling gods so that I'm forced to go to community college next year anyways. That's enough of my rambling, by this point my fan fiction might have already been posted.
Cheers!
