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336 weeks
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337 weeks
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337 weeks
Mwahaha

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337 weeks
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Jan

2nd

2016

A huge weight off my shoulders · 8:30pm Jan 2nd, 2016

This is going to be a changing year. It already is, and it is only the 2nd.

I got a card today from a old friend. He blamed me for something tragic, that wasn't even my fault. After so long, I blamed myself too. I have been carrying that around with me for about 8 years now. I was 12 when it happened. In the card, he explained that he found out the truth and that he was sorry. He couldn't imagine having to live with it, and that itt wasn't my fault. That is something I really needed to hear. I have so much going on in my life right now, but just hearing that means more then I can put into words. It had brought back so many painful memories, but it was something that I needed.

One part of me thinking about doing a story based off what happened (because that is what I do best, and it shouldn't just hide in my diary), but a neither part of me, is telling me not to. It was in the past, and now I need to look forward to the future.

I think back to the Cutie Mark I created a while ago. A black butterfly in a silver moon. It means I can be strong and gentle, but I can be a light in times of darkness. Today, I know I can shine a little brighter because of it. It is one more thing that I can add to my past experience, and hopefully I can use that to help others.

This is a new start, and this year, I am going to live up to my Cutie mark.