Where is chapter 4? Why the delays and a more feasible update schedule.

Well shoot. My schedule kind of got thrown out the window didn't it? No update in October for Chapter 4 and then 13 days into November and still nothing. So, here is what is going on. Also, as usual, I have a super short summary for those who just want bullet points.

1. Since February of last year, my desktop has been broken. I got the chance to build a new one. I knew nothing about building a computer but the source of my income wanted to bless me with the best machine possible by most efficiently using said funds to accomplish that feat. It worked but turned out to be a giant hassle. Not sure if I want to build a computer ever again X_X That said, the new computer is awesome. Also needs an install of a word processor for reasons obvious.

2. Anxiety.

Anxiety sucks. It is a horrible horrible thing. It doesn't make sense and there is no way you can explain why it is so immobilizing. Even worse is the platitudes and advice along the lines of "just think different and see this is as a growing opportunity" that some people come up with. As if you can just think anxiety away. Now, I am not saying people are powerless before the might that is anxiety. However, I am saying that sometimes something as simple as attempting to shift your perspective is not so simple as a single decision like to believe "this is a chance to grow" shifted from "OH GOD, COMPUTER IS BROKEN! I BROKE IT! I THOUGHT THIS CORD WENT INTO THE POWER SUPPLY. WHAT WAS THAT FLASH! I THINK I SHORTED IT OUT!" <----actually happened. I did not realize there was 2 cords powering the video card that were split from one originating cord in the power supply. So I kinda connected it back into the power supply again. That was a freak out X_X

Anyway, essentially anxiety has sort of of enhancing effect on all trouble I tend to encounter. Best way I can explain it is, bear with me, remember math? That thing we rarely use if it is not part of our jobs? Remember the term "squared"? When something was squared you multiplied itself by itself (Example: 3 squared means 3 times 3. Which is 9). Anxiety is like that. Multiplicative. Every increase in difficulty is compounded and is made much harder than anyone would expect. Combine that with the fact that I discovered that writing in a vacuum (aka, without an editor or someone to talk about the story with/proof read said story is a source of anxiety) and everything has been fun in the most sarcastic sense of the word. So yeah, anxiety sucks. Good news, I am dealing with it. Getting help, talking, etc but I would be lying to myself and all of you if I did not say this is going to affect the update schedule. Which brings me to my final topic.

3. The update schedule

So, that has been a bit of a mess. So here is my plan. I still want to write of Quills and Blades. Furthermore, I already wrote the first 9 chapters with 10 well on its way. They merely need to be revised (I have some plans for revising the first chapter as well thanks to a comment and some friends who had suggestions. So look for that!). What this means is I should be able to update without too much trouble. So here's the plan.

Update Schedule: 1 update every 2 months starting with the end of November. And that is pretty much it.

Summary:
1. Sorry, computers are hard
2. So is anxiety
3. Updates coming by no later than the end of November and every other month after that.