I'm going to make something god fucking damnit

Honesty time. I haven't posted anything in months because I'm a quitter. I quit writing, I quit working, I quit socializing, hell I've even stopped eating a lot of the time. I haven't been trying to get a story right for everybody or getting new ideas to paper. I haven't done anything except game, school, and constantly tell myself I'm a worthless turd nobody wants to have to drag around.
Fuck that. I used to build race cars, robots, trains, and write my own stories about a show that is one of the only things that makes me talk to other people. I love games, and I love playing games with other people. Im gonna brag, cuz I am the best FPS player I know, something I've spent years getting better and better at. I'm gonna start a league, a team, fuck it Im gonna do both. You know what else? Im gonna write again, for real. Maybe it won't even be pony, but Im gonna write it anyway. I don't know where I'll publish it, but whatever. All that time I wasted before sitting alone in my room crying and shouting and smashing things, Im gonna spend as a person. I fix shit, I make shit, I tell other people how to do shit. That's my shit. I'm going to embrace it and start being the person I used to be.
I don't have any money, but I'll cross that bridge when I'm actually able to cross it. Until then, it's time to remember what I used to be, and be that man again.

Comments

[JMac]

Good for you. And thank you. I kinda needed to hear this message myself.