28 years now. Still got a bit until I hit the truly scary 30! Don't really have anything big planned for my birthday. Been playing iRacing and then tonight I'm having dinner with my dad, so that'll be nice.
And also I feel like I should get in the habit of blogging a bit more. It's been a while.
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Waste of Talent · 3:21pm Oct 5th, 2015
I'm a pretty smart guy. When I do the work, i kick ass. I'm able to learn and understand the material being taught. But the problem I have is that I never do the work outside of class. I always put it off and I start to fall behind. No matter how many times I tell myself this semester is going to be different, it never is. I keep making the same mistakes over and over again. My talent and knowledge is wasted on me because I can't get myself to do the fucking work. I'm a waste of talent. I keep failing her and it kills me. Knowing nothing will change my ways. Some days I wish death would just find me and take me to a better place. I'm not suicidal, I'm just eager for my time to come is all.
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It happens to me too. So, is it that when you get into it you can concentrate but when you don't get into it you can't?
Honestly whether you stay where you are or don't is completely up to you. Feeling guilty about it isn't gonna change anything, you need to have the determination to change.
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If I start it I can do it. It's just I can never get myself to start the work.
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That is very true
3444753 Your feeling guilty, which means that you know that something is wrong. So know you just need to act on it. Change a bit, not much, just bit by bit.
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I'll try. Thank you
3444757 np.
3444726 That's the same with me. For me it helps to have a family member (or whatever) to force me for the first fifteen minutes or so.
It only gets worse that way when you get out into the real world. College is easy by comparison.
Never stop what you are doing dude. You will never fail her if you love her then she's loves you more then you will know.