I'm Not Dead | The Future of Secrets and Lies

Believe it or not, I'm still here.

Today is my birthday, and I thought I should give you a little treat, which is just me writing a blog post. Sorry, I know I could have done better, but this has been a rough year so far.

First off, I'm sorry for the delays. Honestly, I've never been so depressed and uninspired in my life. I absolutely hate it, I don't know how to get out of this pit I've dug around myself. For the last few months, I've been working every morning and every night. I usually have Mondays off, and when I do have them off I just want to sit around and do nothing. I feel the only way out of this is to quit my job. It's practically machine labor and is so desensitizing that I sometimes experience ego death. I feel so worn out all the time. I really wish I could finish SoE3, I think about it a lot, but I really don't know how to even start writing again. I have 2 separate SoE specials I worked on and haven't finished them. I don't really know what to do except quit my job, focus on school, and finishing this fiction. I'm terrible at balancing out my priorities and what needs to be done, and really that might be the root to all of this...

...I would love to finish SoE3 and be done with it. I want it to end the way I planned. Maybe then I can move on. I feel like finally now in my life I know what needs to be done and I can see the route I must take to get there, I just need to find a way to successfully navigate it.

The future of the Eternity Series is uncertain, but I will try to start again and this time finish it.

I hope you forgive me. If you have any questions, leave them below. I will answer them.

Comments

[thatcoolkidguy]

always happy to hear that people aren't died makes me feel warm and fuzzy. happy brithday my friend much cheer such wow