Explanation for Anger · 6:30am Jun 20th, 2015
I'm stupid. I've never exactly learned to control my anger. I tried with a couple therapists, went to a hospital to be treated, and even take medication. None of it ever or still isn't working. I just can't take it. I will take a couple days to cool down before saying anything else. I'm sorry for any insults thrown. I'm sorry for lashing out. I just wish I could control it. [sigh]. I will say this:
There were two things affecting my mood today:
1. Weather
2. School
1. I don't understand my biology, but weather seems to greatly affect my mood. For example: when it rains around me, I get angry and lash out any way I can. When it's sunny and bright, I usually can keep my anger down by being sarcastic. THAT'S only if someone tries to piss me off. Today, it rained most of the day, so I got angry too easily and lashed out.
2. School has been a bitch to me. I can't exactly excuse my behavior today on fimfic or school. I'm not exactly great at writing. I'm more of a mathematician. That's why I chose yugioh as my fic, cause it requires math, and strategy. I didn't ever exactly pass English in school, like at all. I try my best. I'm just not good. And yes, I still had school. Today was the last day. Until summer school comes around. I wish writing was more of my strong suit so I could become a better writer.
These are my non legitimate excuses, but still the reasons I acted angry today. I'm sorry. Especially to moviemaster8510. I just [sigh], wish I could have stopped before doing the lashing out parts.
From now on, if I lash out, Please tell me to calm down. I should eventually calm down and apologize. On the occasion I don't, it means that either I've got something that really pissed me off, or I just feel like I'm on top. Either way, I'm just a stupid person. I got my anger out at the wrong people, and I'll pay the penalty for that. Still, I hope that any of you can forgive me. This story will continue, but this time, I'll work on making it better. SO SORRY. I wish this could all just be over with, but I know that people will still hate me. So um... bye.
I assume you're talking about high school. And judging by your diction and lack of self-control, and I'm going to guess you're somewhere around 14 or 15; a freshman or sophomore in high school. If you're actually older, then take the following even more seriously.
If you want my advice, put this fic on hold. Go through and read all of the guides to help new writers, and I mean actually read them, not just gloss over. And once you finish, read some of this site's more popular fics so that you understand how good pacing, punctuation, and characters should be written. Despite what you may think, it's actually not looked down upon to copy another writer's writing style as long as the content is your own.
The world's smartest people are avid readers, and any serious writer has done exponentially more reading than writing; some people make it a goal to read a book a day. Reading and writing is also a skill you'll need if you ever want to get through college, so start early.
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Thanks for the advice, I'll do just that.
I'm 16, Junior. Well I suppose senior now that school is over.
My mind is still developing. So thank you again.
Talk about weather, this year we are gonna have lots of rain and storms. They called this El Nino. Means lots of rain and lots of storms. However, it'll cause disaster like floods and damage buildings like a hurricane. I'm just telling you to be prepared if your place you're living gets one.
As far my dad told me about this El Nino, this one is strong and it will long lasted a year and a half, it'll mostly effect the southern states, but it probably effect everything. I don't know, we just need to wait and see on this year of fall.
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Thanks, I didn't actually know that. Better prepare myself.
3165431 Hey, same as me!