Goodbye for now

First off I want to say that this isn't good bye forever. I just feel like I need a break. to be honest I am tired, of the fandom, of mlp itself, and of tcb both anti and pro. I don't feel happy here and I feel like coming here everyday has become a chore. I honestly feel like it would be good for me to leave for now.
However I want to apologize to Chatoyance, I feel like I am abandoning you when you need support and I do feel bad for that. but to be honest I can't stand all the arguing by everyone. To be honest both sides frustrate me, I am not a materialist, or a humanist. I find the humans are bastards thinking by some to be wrong, and I think the humans are superior thinking to be wrong as well. I really don't like trans-humanism which I feel is wishful thinking. I feel like trying to escape the human condition isn't healthy and the idea that humans are separate from nature to be arrogant. I am a shintoist and a polytheist and I see humanity as inherently good. I see humanity as something to be accepted and nature as something to be cherished. This sums up most of my thinking, http://thearchdruidreport.blogspot.com/2013/11/toward-green-future-part-one-culture-of.html and http://thearchdruidreport.blogspot.com/2013/09/life-preservers-for-mermaids.html and I feel like it makes great points. I don't believe in utopia or apocalypse, I feel like we need to focus on the here and now and accept that this planet is pretty darn okay. I like it here damn it, and I don't see human nature or this planet as something that needs to be transcended. and to be honest I feel like some of the anti-tcb actually did make some good points, and if that makes me a traitor well then so be it. ごめんなさい and さようなら
may we meet again, sincerely ApparitonsShadow