I walk a lonly road indeed · 3:53am Mar 9th, 2015
As all you people who know of my existence know, I am of homosexual oreintation, as much as I love it and all of its attributes, i can only talk about it with my... Significant other who shall not be named... And I dare not tell my friends, most of them have had a hard life with rude and ignorant parents, and I don't want to pressure them with my own problems, I'm not able to find people like me around where I live,
Some times I consider packing up, getting a passport and straight up walking to the home of my love, but however I slice my dilemma, this song sums up how I feel, I'm not sure if anyone who reads this will care, but I just need to get this stuff of my chest
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I cant stand living this life this way, I need to find a way...
You aren't alone you know? You may never really talk to me anymore, but you can always talk to me about anything bothering you. Your road may not be so lonely after all. And I pretty much had it down pat that you were homosexual and I won't judge you and whomever be your love is a lucky one indeed. You needn't hide it from me.
2861354 this a slightly public PSA to all my followers that I somehow managed to gather, I did tell you,
I did just then,
But I am alone, there isn't a single human being within four thousand miles that I can talk to in person, the Internet is nice but...
Not forever
2861362 I meant that you could talk to me about any other issues. The one you mentioned was obvious. I forgot to use past tense for my reply in crucial places.
2861371 but I'm sorry if I've forgotten and this is an extremely and horribly rude this to say,
But
Why do you care, we talked breifly once and then... Nothing, I don't re,ever when we met or anything
2861377 I don't care if that was the most dire of insults. You are a great man who I had the pleasure to meet and I will be there for you. If you have any other whining, complaints, or questions, please do not hesitate to either shove it or ask because again, I... don't... care. All I care about is helping a dude I barely know and you'll either accept my solace or you will dismiss it and I will leave. It is that simple.
2861393 I will accept this solace, but unless you have a job in my immediate vicinity that pays $1000 or so per month, I can't ask anymore than that you listen to my plight
2861403 The thousand or so is covered, but the vicinity isn't so I will listen to your plight.
2861415 thank you...
I hate my life.
My friends have hard lives.
I can't do well in school.
I survived one of the deadliest illnesses known to mankind.
I can't share my homosexuality with my peers.
I can't do anything correctly without it being ruined by something horrid five minutes later.
I need money to travel I don't even know how many miles to get to Tennessee.
I my mind forces imagine me causing injury to anyone I meet.
I just want to sit in some institution until I die.
2861475 First, I can't tell you any different than what you tell yourself, but: From what I have known you, you have been funny, kind, decent, humble, a great friend all around, you're a determined trooper, caring, crazy, and now you publicly share your orientation and I smile. You are wonderful person from what I have known and you show that also through to your dedication to your man and to continue in life. Can I ask you a very serious question? Answer it very truthfully and the question to ask the question does not count.
2861479 publicly share my oreintation?
Only about ten peopl know and the all live thousands of miles away, where the secret remains hidden
And yes ask away,
2864380 Do you love him?
2864820
YES.
2866110 Then what's this rubbish I read about giving up? If you love him that much, why would you give up or even be down? To give up is to let him down. If you can't shape up for your own sake, then please do so for your own lover. I am sure he wouldn't appreciate his significant other going into depression. Would you if he did?
Things will work out in your favor with the help of the friends you hold dear, and the love we give you regardless~