Looking back... · 8:29pm Feb 2nd, 2015
So I've been working on my victim impact statement today (a statement of all the ways my life has been effected by me getting robed at gunpoint and shot) and I've thought back on things.
I stated off with online gaming and things were fine for awhile, but as time went on my mood darkened and my attitude worsened . It got to the point where I only played to make people quit. Then one day I found the song, rainbow factory which led me to MLP:FIM. This started a change in me, a change for the better, and I am thankful for that because if it didn't happen I would of likely died of a heart attack by now with the way I was going. This new light of hope for me inspired me to write and read again (posted at the end are some links to my writing on google, this is your only warning) and along with that came getting more involved in suicide prevention groups. In 10 years I've lost 5 people who needed help.
Now I know I've helped many people, but those five... Each time it happened I quit doing things and shut down for awhile.
Getting to the heart of the issue, now that I've been shot and could of died or been paralyzed for life I find it hard to keep going, I find that I can't keep promises I've made.
I'm not sure where I was going with this now. I don't want pity, I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I'm not sure what I want.
Mane six interview with a deity
Please note Egore and the carnival of night is not linked because it's on fimfiction and I haven't been able to get myself to delete it or rewrite it.
You're alive. You're ALIVE!! You could've died but you didn't which means that you can still live.
Getting shot sucks, man.
2764630 That much is true, but it feels like my creativity has died.
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So what you need is inspiration?
2764638 Yes, yes it does. But hearing the guy who shot you lie in court is even worse.
2764641 Inspiration would be nice, but it's in short supply.
2764655 That's the problem, really.