Why am I so depressing? · 12:10pm Jan 14th, 2015
I have been told by several people, inculding ones here on FiM,(not pointing anyfingers) Tha I ca be creepy and disturbing. Why? Why is it that my words that I use to blog or respond, or just me in general is so creepy? You don't like my creepy, ignore me! I wish that people would ignore me...I don't like stares. *Slighlty lifts mask to swig some Apple Juice* Thats part of why I wear the mask, especially IRL. I cannot see them, see their stares, glares, laugher. They stare at themask, not at me. I wish that I could be normal, but Im fuckedup in the head so thats never gonnahappen, I am sorry. I'm just so so sorry. I spam you guys with shit, blog a couple times each day, and you read it. You take time from what you are doing to read it. I have one final thing to say to those who think that I am creepy. At least I have gained control of my (literal) nervous ticking. For the most part. Anywho, just ignore it, more shit from the fucked up in the head bitch that you all follow for no good reason.
I am just waiting for death, Luna.I am not currently conpemplating suicide like I was, so leave me aone on that, I guess. I don't give a frick. I wish you didn't, would dissappear, I am so alone even when surrounded by peple. I am different in a bad way. Who wants to be different? I wander alone, my only friend beside me. I cannot wait for the warmm welcoming embrace of death, calling out to me like sleep.
P.S. My meds are wearing off, and I ra out. Expect either EVEN more extreme depression from this worthless shit, or extreme loopiness. Or, best of all, just ignore me and my worthless typing. I swore never to type a story nor write it, and I intend on keeping that.
Death comes for us all, we have no purpose, life is an illusion, we are holograms set here to die, buy gold, ByE!
you know I'm your friend. right? how long do we know eachother? look in your followers list.I'm your FIRST follower. I know you longer then anyone else. so I can safely say, you're not creepy. not in my eyes. you're a wonderfull person. that's what you are. my friend.
that mask, I know what you're talking about. I wear one too. I hide myself too. I know EXACTLY how you feel....
please. I'm here for you.
Do you want an actual, legitimate answer to your question, or do you want a generic platitude that does nothing but feed your wanton lust for attention and unmerited sympathy? Because I will answer you. Seriously. As a mature adult. If you're not ready for such an answer, then be sure to tell me so.
Creepy? No. Different? Yes. Some people confuse the two.
I don't think you're depressing. I think you're wonderful.
I love your blogposts! They're funny!
2721873 I would love a real answer. All peoples ever do is go 'Different is better'
I want to see if you have anything real to say, not simply stuff thats been said before.
You're not creepy at all. If uou were, i would've ignored you. But i don't and i won't. I know how it feels to hide you face behind a mask. To not be one you really are. To be laughed at. I know how it feels.
Sometimes, you don't need a reason to follow someone. Some people follow people for reasons, others don't. I may not have a reason for following you. But i have no regrets in following you.
You may hide your face, but i can tell your not creepy, your actually very nice. I can tell on the other side of that mask, is a very nice person. You're not worthless.
Also, you may be different, but I see nothing wrong with that. I see nothing wrong with being different from others.
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Having been said before does not render an assessment invalid. If anything, repetitious prognoses elucidate a central order or pattern in an illness or disorder. If a thousand people keep telling some guy that he's fucking annoying, then chances are that he's just fucking annoying.
2721926 Ok, then do you have words you wanted to say?
I can confess to not knowing you much. And I'm sorry for that. Everyone deserves to feel loved and be loved. And every human has that capacity. But I know the feeling of being surrounded and alone, all at once. And at this point you probably expect some religious rant. Not that guy xD
Anywho. You have all us who take the time out of our day to spend on an interesting, unique and complex person. You are never alone, you just don't let us in. So open up and let us talk to you and interact and let yourself feel loved and cared for.
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This isn't legitimate despair. This is teen wangst. If you can just hold on for about another four years (give or take a year), you will outgrow this bullshit. I promise you. You're going to look back on these posts of yours as a college-age person one day and be completely mortified by their inanity. I'm not trying to be mean. I'm being honest. I'm a psyche student. You will outgrow this shit if you just hang on.